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it's funny,it really is!I'm bacl here and I'm writing a journal while once I thought it's the most boring thing in the world,now I'm bored,more than ever and I'm here to write it down!
it's a song,I wrote,it's for the time that I was really down,because of my family,my friends,my study and..everything...
here we go:
I Keep breathing,living in the dark
I'm lost in here,with noises from out,
and I keep walking,in a road head to nowhere,
I keep fal...
it's funny,it really is!I'm bacl here and I'm writing a journal while once I thought it's the most boring thing in the world,now I'm bored,more than ever and I'm here to write it down!
it's a song,I wrote,it's for the time that I was really down,because of my family,my friends,my study and..everything...
here we go:
I Keep breathing,living in the dark
I'm lost in here,with noises from out,
and I keep walking,in a road head to nowhere,
I keep falling and stand up again...
something is wrong,I wanna escape,
it's all broken,into pieces and I
believe,it's the end...
*mirror on the wall,tells me that I'm right
my eyes keep crying,I...I'm alone.
I keep breathing,thinking of you...
I'm lost in memories and hating you...
you don't know,how much it hurt.
I keep falling,I'm scared...
something is wrong,I wanna escape
it's all broken,into pieces
and I believe,it's the end!
*morror on the wall, tells me that I'm right
my eyes keep crying,I..I'm alone. · close
I don't know if you have heard Rihana's "daimond"...it's a beautiful song...anyway,my article deosn't have anything to do with this song,I'm not going to talk about this song...
Hmmm,I just realized what does disapointment means,I thought
I would never face it...you know,actually I was so used to it,to being disapointed...didn't expect that,faceing it like that...
ok,I'm gonna explain...I heard something today:if problem comes,it's gonna be a...
I don't know if you have heard Rihana's "daimond"...it's a beautiful song...anyway,my article deosn't have anything to do with this song,I'm not going to talk about this song...
Hmmm,I just realized what does disapointment means,I thought
I would never face it...you know,actually I was so used to it,to being disapointed...didn't expect that,faceing it like that...
ok,I'm gonna explain...I heard something today:if problem comes,it's gonna be a lot!!!that's true,it came & it didn't told me it gonna be like that,ofcourse I've had face problem before but,not like that...I was at a point,that I wanted to change to the better thing,I just couldn't....I can't,the truth is I don't want to change anymore...I want to be that calm,cold,mean,.... person that I allways tried to be but I couldn't be,so I became something that even myself don't know what hould I call it!!!
all I know now is that I should overcome my problems...I just realized,I've been fool,a fool that I allways avoided to be,I've been fool...I'm not gonna be anymore...so..oh,yeah,I had a dog day & I have a headache now,I've promised myself to stop using painkiller or stufs like that for my pains,but I used today...it didn't help,I still have a headache,ok...anyway & yes I was somewhere today and I cried...I cried for someone,it doesn't happen alot...I was shocked myself too!!!it was a funeral,myfriend funeral...anyway,let's forget this one...Emmm...I was listening to Rihana's Diamond,actually it's playing now...I've heard it like...I don't a lot!!!actually it's not a sad song but I keep listening....you know what?I don't know how I actually feel,sad?angry?disapointed,it's the only thing that I'm sure of!!!I was looking for something to make me feel better,so I tried to download some new songs...I couldn't find anything but this song (Daimonds) ,so I search for word "F*ck"!!!=))) I'm crazy!!!anyway,still I couldn't find anything,so I keep listening to Daimonds,without hearing a word...yeah,I keep listening to it & leave...I leave for hell...it's far but still..... · close
Once I wrote a jpurnal,I said I feel like writing the song "love the way you lie".again,today,at this moment,I feel like writing this song...so I write:Just gonna stand there & watch me burn,that's alright because I like the way it hurt...just gonna stand there & here me cry,that's alright because I love the way you lie...I love the way you lie....
It's not like some one has broken my heart,this time...it's just me...I have problem with myself & yeah,I ...
Once I wrote a jpurnal,I said I feel like writing the song "love the way you lie".again,today,at this moment,I feel like writing this song...so I write:Just gonna stand there & watch me burn,that's alright because I like the way it hurt...just gonna stand there & here me cry,that's alright because I love the way you lie...I love the way you lie....
It's not like some one has broken my heart,this time...it's just me...I have problem with myself & yeah,I know,it's not the first time...Emmm,actually at the first,everything was alright..there are some worries right now in my life,but we can ignore them...so,evrything is or actually was allright;till I send some massages to my friend-if call that relationship,a friendship than ofcourse we are friend-than....you know,I...ssomehow....feel down...
anyway,I decided to write what is in my mind,it's not gonna be any help but at list...I'm doing something!
at the end I wanna write a song that recently I'm so into it...it's Lil Wayne & Bruno Mars "Mirror",the first time that I heard this song I told myself,i feel it somehow...now again.......
mirror on the wall....here we are again...through my rise & fall,you've been my only friend...
you told me that they can't understand the man I am....so why are we talking to each other again?!!!
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ok,te title says everithing....I need a composer!!!!It's not like i need a big help.just a little bit!!!I have the song,I can play piano,but i can't compose...tell me....can you help?!!!i just want to know how should I do this...Ah,god....it's something...Just teach me how to compose,please!!!:)
(Oh,not again,it says my journal is short,what can I do?!!!!!it's all I wanted to say!!!should I write more?!!!)
Emmm,there is allways some songs in your playlist that you think they are the best!!!ofcourse there would be!!!!I allways say the "best" song that I've heard is SS501 "love ya".it's perfect.....and I allways add if the first is "love ya"second one is TVXQ "mirotic"!I have good reasons for my choices:lyrics,music,danse....everything is perfect!
anyway,I don't want to talk about these two songs;my sistar says that it's weird cause my fav...
Emmm,there is allways some songs in your playlist that you think they are the best!!!ofcourse there would be!!!!I allways say the "best" song that I've heard is SS501 "love ya".it's perfect.....and I allways add if the first is "love ya"second one is TVXQ "mirotic"!I have good reasons for my choices:lyrics,music,danse....everything is perfect!
anyway,I don't want to talk about these two songs;my sistar says that it's weird cause my favorite playlist is different!my favorite playlist contains the sons that I'm crazy over them,I can listen to them for...forever!!!I don't know why!!!:(
1-Brown eyed girls : come with me
I download this song at 10pm,I was up till 4am,allthis time I was listening to this song;it start and then you can stop it!!!(sorry,I mean I can't!:D)
2-Xia junsu's new album contain a song name "set m free",it was one the songs that the first time that I heard it,I wanted to dance!!!there are other songs like that in my playlist,the songs that I haven't seen a MV of them,but I love dancing with them....after the first time,I decided to listen to it more...you know,my TVXQ playlist is like that:set me free
share the world
she
so,that day for the first time I listened to "she",it didn't take 5 second,I became crazy over this song!!!
3-da ga va su,again one of the brown eyed girls song....this song is like miracle for me,plus it's the first song that I got mad for...
4-I really respect JYP,his music is wonderfull,I like his work...."like a movie" is one of the songs that made me crazy;specially lyrics....specially rap part....oh,I love it...i can listen to it forever;no matter how much I try,I love this song,I don't get bored.....Taecyeon is a perfect rapper,yes he is....
as I said before I love JYP music,almost all his songs can be in my favorite playlist;but I don't know why,whenever I think about "Like a movie" rap part I get crazy,I tell myself,no it's the best....so,what's wrong with me?!!!.... · close
As the title says it's an old story,something that I allways wanted to write & now,I did it!!!It was like I didn't know what is the problem but now....you sometimes some unimportent things lead you to vary important things!!!!anyway,here the song:Lies!!!
I know I have told this a thousend times,
that you are the only one that I love....
I know it maybe boring for you,
But I still love you!!!
I think that,there are a thousend fool like me,
they fall in love without knowing,
they ge...
As the title says it's an old story,something that I allways wanted to write & now,I did it!!!It was like I didn't know what is the problem but now....you sometimes some unimportent things lead you to vary important things!!!!anyway,here the song:Lies!!!
I know I have told this a thousend times,
that you are the only one that I love....
I know it maybe boring for you,
But I still love you!!!
I think that,there are a thousend fool like me,
they fall in love without knowing,
they get happy,
they get sad,
they cry because of that!
what is it?no one knows.
it's a feeling,I'm not sure....
Lies lies lies....
even you,suffering,
of this pain,you are in...
Lies lies lies...
Just stop this game,
don't do this to me again!
Lies lies lies....
Oh,not again....
Some people says I'm stupid cause,
I'm after a fake love
They say your heart isn't mine,
I should read this through your eyes...
they say your mind is busy,
cause someone that is not me,
they are lieing...
cause I know,
you can't love anyone....but me!!!
Lies lies lies...
I'm telling lie,
again this time...
Lies lies lies...
I didn't sleep all the night!
Lies lies lies...
you said lie,
like the last time...
Oh,I think we should stop,
you should stop,
cause it's not gonna work the next time...
Don't lie...!
I have told this a thousend time,
that I'm gonna hate you for the rest of my life...
I'm gonna forget you & your sweet smile,
It's not gonna melt my heart,
you hurt me....it's just another lie!!!
Lies lies lies...
you & me,together,it's a lie!
Lies lies lies...
I'll forget you,another one!
Lies lies lies....stop this,cause you hurt me...
It's a lie!!!
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Hmmm,I really don't like anyone read this!!!I have a good reason:I'm writing it because I don't know what to do!!!
It's an old song of mine...I write it in class!!!I was too bored & too sad...
anyway,while I can't write any new song write now,so I write this one!!!
(I'm not sure it's right or not!!!)
don't read!!!I don't have good feeling about it...
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OH!!!I can't!!!I can't write it...I don't have good feeling about ...
Hmmm,I really don't like anyone read this!!!I have a good reason:I'm writing it because I don't know what to do!!!
It's an old song of mine...I write it in class!!!I was too bored & too sad...
anyway,while I can't write any new song write now,so I write this one!!!
(I'm not sure it's right or not!!!)
don't read!!!I don't have good feeling about it...
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OH!!!I can't!!!I can't write it...I don't have good feeling about writing it!!!
oh,god!why I became like this?!!!
forget it...I'm just going to post this...nothing more!!!
P.N:as I promised before it was nothing,right?! · close
I'm not sad,I'm not happy...
I'm not good,I'm not bad...
I'm not like myself,I'm not like other's...
I'm don't have confident,I'm allways sure...
I have pride-a lot-,I let others to hurt me...
I'm cruel,some say I'm kind...
I'm not the best,I'm one of the bests!!!
I don't want to live like this,I'm happy with the way life goes...
I'm not talent,it seems like I am!
I'm cold,I'm cute...
who am ...
I'm not sad,I'm not happy...
I'm not good,I'm not bad...
I'm not like myself,I'm not like other's...
I'm don't have confident,I'm allways sure...
I have pride-a lot-,I let others to hurt me...
I'm cruel,some say I'm kind...
I'm not the best,I'm one of the bests!!!
I don't want to live like this,I'm happy with the way life goes...
I'm not talent,it seems like I am!
I'm cold,I'm cute...
who am I?
I don't know!
what will happen in future?
I don't know!
Do I know anything?
No...
why did I write this?
I'm not allowed?!!!
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Emmm,I just had a feeling which made me wanna write this song here.actually I was singing this song all the day;today & yesterday...
I just want this part:
Just gonna stand there & watch me burn,
That's alright cause I like the way it hurts;
Just gonna stand there & hear me cry,
That's alright cause I love the way you lie!
The end.
P.N:it seems there is a problem,I can't post it cause it's too short!!!That's allright cause I'm going to fin...
Read more (2 words more)Emmm,I just had a feeling which made me wanna write this song here.actually I was singing this song all the day;today & yesterday...
I just want this part:
Just gonna stand there & watch me burn,
That's alright cause I like the way it hurts;
Just gonna stand there & hear me cry,
That's alright cause I love the way you lie!
The end.
P.N:it seems there is a problem,I can't post it cause it's too short!!!That's allright cause I'm going to find a way! · close
Actually,this song is base on a true story,somehow!!!Yesterday,I desided to write it...cause I was hurt...I don't expect you to understand,it's personal as I said before...but I'll be glad to know how you feel when you read it...:)
Stop,cause it seems so real when you say it hurt you so much
Don't talk,no...cause I'm not going to belive you this time
All the words that you say / all the games that you play/all that you did....during this time,
it seems so fake,when I go...
Actually,this song is base on a true story,somehow!!!Yesterday,I desided to write it...cause I was hurt...I don't expect you to understand,it's personal as I said before...but I'll be glad to know how you feel when you read it...:)
Stop,cause it seems so real when you say it hurt you so much
Don't talk,no...cause I'm not going to belive you this time
All the words that you say / all the games that you play/all that you did....during this time,
it seems so fake,when I go back trough the time...
No,no more this time...if you call me / if you cry /if you say you are sad,you are alone...
whatever,I won't care to you this time...cause I know that you'll lie!
this word,that you allways say,it made me to belive you have a heart...
Love....that you even don't know what a hell it meens,
enough,don't talk about what you don't belive in,
cause you break me down,when you break my heart...
Oh,it's so painfull when you find out you are living a faking live...
Oh,it hurts more...it hurts when you find out you are not the only one!
I wish that you could feel my heart...but you can't,cause I'm not sure you have a one!
Now tell me,how could you act like that? / when you said,you love me / you thought
it's right to hurt someone,when you don't need him!
Oh god,it hurts / oh god,he don't care / oh god,how could you creat someone like him...
...Now,I regret...cause I tought that it hurts...cause I was not in love...
but I fell...:(
Now tell me,how could you act like that? / when you said,you love me / you thought it's right to hurt someone,when you don't need him!
Oh god,it hurts / oh god,he don't care / oh god,how could you creat someone like him...
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Stop,cause it seems so real when you say it hurt you so much
Don't talk,no...cause I'm not going to belive you this time...no...no...nomore this time. · close
