hiii

first i thank everybody who left a comment on my previous journal!
thank you sooooo much*bow*
and especially kumasan!!

my brother is doing really good now. He can speak and breathe normally again, so they placed him to a hospital near his house.
after he woke up (like a week ago) from his coma they discovered he had pneumonia, so we were really worried. But he is doing fine now

when he woke up he had amnesia he only forgot who his ex-wife wasXD
soooo funny! her face!!XD
and when she said that she was his wife he started laughing!!XD

they have an on/off relationship and he forgives her for leaving with another man everytime!! I really dont understand him!! so it was really funny when he didnt recognise her!!

but maybe he pretended he forgot her.....XD

well.....I hope that everyone had a fun Xmas, or is still having a fun Xmas!
and a happy 2009!!!!!

P.S @ kumasan: thank you soooo much for the creme account!
it saved me a war with my mum! cuz i was planning to steal her creditcardXD but i think she would notice it if I did it....and then i would be locked in my room for ever and i would never see my laptop back!

they say that bad luck comes in three...(or something like that)
so i thought it was all over!

but nooooo
this year isnt over yet!

i'll tell you about the bad stuff that happened in 2008:
1) a good friend of ours committed suicide
2) my dog died becuase of cancer
3) an aunt died
4) my grandpa died becuase of an heart attack
5) my brother is now in coma cuz he had today a heart attack. and they think he'll die...

....whats next?
my dad? my mom?...ME?

oh please...let 2009 be a better year!!!

ugh.....my latest journal was 2 hours ago but i was soooooo bored that i made some picsXD

and with no make-upXD this is my sunday-look!!XDmuahahahahaahah

Still a week of school and then finally vacation!!
Two weeks being lazy and Jpopping!!! cant wait!!!XD

and last friday the school organised a party!!
it was awsome!!!
first we went all to a friends house to eat first and then to prepare us for the party and it was sooo mcuh fun!!
but two other friends couldnt come

The brother of that friend brought us to there and he turned to volume to the max when we were arriving!!>_< so everybody turn aruond to see what if was!!XDmuahahahahXD
so we made the biggest entry of course
btw...if you want to know how we looked like in our dresses i put some pics in the forum

it was really fun....but then i saw him omg...he was soooo cute and hot
but then.... i saw him with another girl holding hands and toucing her ass and they were almost kissing i already suspected that they were a couple (cuz you see them all the time together) so it wasnt really a shock but still....I was soooooo
but wathever!! i tried to forget what i saw and i didnt let other ppl see that i was a little depressed and pissed....

but then!!! I saw that girl kissing another boy!!!
the kind of kissing when you have already a loooooooong relationship with eachother!!
so i was like...What The FUCK!!!!
and he (my crush ) was standing next to them......

so I was really confused
but also very happy XDlol
so the pary turned out to be really awsome and fun!!!!


oh yeah!!
yesterday was Hide's b-day!!
he is already 10 year dead!!!!O_o
thats a ****ing long time!!!!!!!


see yaaaaaaaaaaa

so more then a week ago that happened (see other 2 journalsXD) and nothing happened.......I evn talked to him!!yeeyXD
well, it was more like:

is that.......
yeah
can i have a look at it
of course
is it yours?
my name isnt .... or is it?
can i copy it?
yeah, but I have to copy it also so you can have it after I am done
ok



wauw what a conversation!
I am shocked!XD
but he did smile at me XD




and nothing exciting happened this week, am just stuyding really hard.
Its kind of boringT_T

oh yeah!! they (stupid ppl from school) changed their mind and we are going now with the bus to Rome and not with the plane!!
I hate them soooo much!! have to sit now 22 hours in the bus!!



have found a awsome song of 12012!! its called 24hours!! i love it!
http://nl.youtube.com/watch?v=zZX6L3b2teU

bye bye!!

soo yesterday I made that huge blooper and now I cant look him in the eyes again!!

still dont know if he saw it or not!
but that friend said that it wasnt that of a huge blooper......and she told me that with a big smile on her faceT_T and she told it also to an other friend.
and then they were laughing at me......but it was also so funny that I had to laugh too

but what now!!! what if he did see it

what to do tomorrow:

study
clean the house
study
study
study


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you hear al lot of: I wish I could die!! and stuff like that but i definetly dont want to dieXD so................ I WISH I HAD A TIME MACHINE!!!!

you all think: WTF is wrong with her?! XD i'll explain

I just figured out that I like a guy from my class ( i am normally very slow and dense about that )! and he is soooooooo cute when he smiles well, i save you the details cause I think that you dont wanna hear them

and today I just made such a stupid blooper infront of him!!!waaaaaaaaah

I actually dont know if he saw it but i think he did, cause when he saw me after the P.E. class he had such a cute BIG smile on his face when he saw me
But my friend(who told me she saw it.....well that doesnt matter that she saw it but my P.E. teacher also saw it ) told me that she isnt sure if he (and an other boy who sat nxt to him) saw it cause he didnt laugh or say anything then.
But he is the shy type that doesnt really shout things or laugh really hard so i still dont know!!!.......

why did it happen!?!?! why now?!?! why did I go in the first place too P.E.??????



OK!! NOW SOMETHING ELSEXD

except that what happened today, its going really good with me!!
just learning really hard and making a lot of homework
Have now to learn 50 pages!!! for tomorrows test!!!

still 5 weeks and one day and then....VACATION!!! CANT WAIT!!!!


see yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

finally!!!free again!!
waking up at 12:30 p.m!! waah!!! missed it!
it's finally vacation! but it's only for a week

Today two friends went to U.S.A! for two weeks
want to go too!! they went with 8 other people from my class and they are going to be in Georgia and New Orleans

In May i am going to Rome with school!!yeey!!
can't wait!!!
and we are going with the plane and not with the bus!! woehoeeee cause with the bus it's 22 hours I would be half dead if we finally arrive there!

well, am going to ask what the others are gonna do this week
bye bye
-xxx-

p.s. have a photo from me while I am doing the marshnmallow competition last week If it isn't a very embarresing photo I will post it but I haven't it yet cause it's on the celphone of a friend.

heey everyone!!!

I am writting this at school and have to wacht out because if a teacher sees that I am doing a other things than doing homework on the computer they'll block my account but I am here in a very quite place and there is only one person ( a boy whose back I don't recognise ) and there is a teacher in front of me doing some sienctific stuff (don't know if i spelled it right^_^! )
Am pretty bored now........can't listen music. Still 10 minutes to go till thebell. Have french......I had yesterday a test, so hope that i did it good, beacuase it is the only note from period 1!!
for today we had to learn (oh no!! that teacher is doing something now next to me..oh and the boy just walked away now.....still don't know who he was....aaah^_^the teacher is also walking away! ) 200 words and gramm!! ugh! was feeling dead when I woke up today. My eyes felt like someone put glue in it, and it also felt like I had run a marathon or something like that...

5 minutes till the bell

Am now all alone, quite boring!!oh I here people comming down the stairs!!

Wauw!!! Renannon, you're right!! MYV did took his lipring out!! and also cut his hair!! hmm....we'll see if it suits him

2 minutes till the bell, and then 50 minutes of class....and then!!!! am I finally freeeee!!!!!!!!!!not quite cause have to do homework for tomorrow!!
have to make a html page with 2 frames or something like that and I dont understand a F*@^* !!!

the bell!!!!!

Tomorrow!!!can't wait! cause all my friends are going to stay at my house!!Going to give a mini-party and it's going to become to much fun especially because everyone is comming!! next week is finnaly a week vacation but because two friends are going to the United States for two weeks(Am sooooo jealous!! I want to go too but they will bring me a present )so have to give it tomorrow. I kick my parents out of the house ( they are going to sleep by my grandmother ) and then just watching non stop horror movies

I gave also a party before the summervacation (about 4 months ago) and it was also so much fun especially when we did a game: put as many marshmallows as you can in your mouth and try to speak. it sounds very stupid but you have to see the faces of the others when they try to say something we did it two times and I won both of them but they said I cheated becuase I made them laugh so that they weren't able to put more in their mouth becuase they spitted everything out each time they started laughing. They just can't be serious so have to buy a lot of marshmallows for tomorrow because they want to break my reccord of 20 marshmallows like that is going to happen

OMG I just listened to leech from gazette!!I LOVE IT it's a amazing song!!thanks akicute for adding it!!
mahahaha..ruki looks exact the same like me when I wake up especially now becuase I cut my hair a bit and it became more curly

-xxx-

heey everyone!!

I have just found a site that turns your name in a japanese name!
so my name would be shintaru and not shantal!
if you would like to now your japanese name just ask me and I will tell you, cause the site is in dutch.

byebye

hope that it says what i think it says will someone who knows japanese tell me if it means I love Japan and not something else!?

hi evry1
nothing special happend this week. it was kind of boring. And the fall has begun I hate it becuase I have to go with the bike to school! And there is always a cold strong wind! thank goodness they found the ipod out so I can listen to Alice Nine while I'm going to school! that makes it a lot easier to cycle 4 km with a strong head wind. but I came already two times too late.
Yesterday I almost got blown away!!! I also hate the rain, because it's this cold rain which can make you sick in ten minutes therefore everybody at my school is sneezing and not looking very healthy. And now there is a thunderstorm Tomorrow I'll go shopping in Amsterdam hope that it doesn't rain!!

-xxx-

hi every1, this week began like always. First hour still sleeping in the class and then Wednesday; i was too late and because it was mine fourth time i had too stay on two hours!!I was finally released at 16:50 after two hours staring out of the window. i felt that i was de only human being in the school.no sound. no light. it creeped me a bit out. it just looked like a horror movie Girl alone in the school and in front of her appears a freak with a knife or something like that. and of course the doors would be locked and she can't get out and she has to hide because she is being chased by the freak who's wearing a white mask(like the movie 'the strangers').i think you get the idea.
then Thursday i went to the dentist. But as always he didn't have to do anything
because of the dentist i had missed three hours but i still had P.E and that sucked! we had to run like 4 kilometre in less then a half an hour !!!and because we had to run throught the polder, the only thing you saw were horses and a very long,long,long gray path! So today every muscle in my legs hurts.

bye bye

well...now is my life quite boring...i am studying, studying and studying!!!! rnbecause if i don't do it a have to repeat this year and I have to stay another year in this freaking school!!! I WANT TO GO OUT OF HERE!!! but I have to waite for another two years and then college.....the only fun thing about school is that my friends have the same miserable obligation of going another two years to school so I see them every day!!two weeks to go and im giving míne sweet sixteen mini party, not that kind of what you see on mtv..I am not that rich... but it's going to be fun!!!!I AM ALREADY SIXTEEN!!!YEAH!!!!I can drink now!!!and go to partys and....wel you know..things that aren't allowed when you aren fifteen,and fourtheen...... still two more years and I can go drive in a car!!how amazing is that