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Missa is a girl who signed up 5 years ago. She is member of the Rich Jpops Club with 119,147 Jpops and was last seen here about 9 months ago
So i was going through some of my old journals and found some of the old "quiz" things we used to do here on JPA... you know back in the old days!!! :) lol And i decided to post one of my favorites again <3
RULES: answer the questions and then tag 5 ppl to do it too!!!
- Ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people (don't tell us who it is)
01. i think you are amazing and so damn talented i wis...
So i was going through some of my old journals and found some of the old "quiz" things we used to do here on JPA... you know back in the old days!!! 
lol And i decided to post one of my favorites again 
RULES: answer the questions and then tag 5 ppl to do it too!!! [im gonna tag more ppl to get it going]
- Ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people (don't tell us who it is)
01. i think you are amazing and so damn talented i wish i could talk to you and
tell you that your a beautiful person inside and out.
02. your the best friend i ever have had Thank Yous for being you... I Love You
03. you SAVED ME and changed all the misery in my life into happiness!!!
04. i know this isnt the "REAL" you but until you change i cant b part of your life.
05. you are my everything, you have always been there never doubted never judged Thank Yous for being the amazing woman you are.
06. *hugs*
07. i told you so
08. i hope you realize everything you did to me and i hope you understand why
i had to go.
09. i miss you... wish i could have known you 
10. Thank Yous for giving us a place to call home a place where we are not
the weirdos and where we can make friends and laugh.
- Nine things about yourself
1. the GazettE are my Gods of ROCK!!!
2. im a perfectionist
3. i have two lip piercings
4. was born in Illinois
5. LOVE Japanese food
6. have enough Manga, Anime n Jrock CDs, DVDs to open a small store
7. was born 4 days after Ruki
8. moving to Boston in March
9. im not afraid of who i am
- Eight ways to win your heart
1. orchids
2. honesty
3. humor
4. passion
5. gummy bears
6. kindness
7. intelligence
8. hope
- Seven things that cross your mind a lot
1. seeing the GazettE LIVE
2. $money$money$money$
3. my zecky
4. time
5. Jrock
6. my mom
7. friends
- Six little stupid things you want to happen to you before you die
1. live
2. see the GazettE LIVE 
lol
3. have my poems published
4. get my tattoo
5. marry my love
6. skydive
- Five turn ons
1. Jrock
2. poetry
3. books
4. internet
5. friends
- Four turn offs
1. prejudice
2. closed mindedness
3. liars
4. attention seekers
- Three smileys that describe your life
1.
2.
3.
- Two things you wish you never did
1. stayed with my ex for so long
2. let the misery consume me
- One confession
1. its the things i havnt done... not the thing i have done that i regret
OKs now to TAG my innocent victims...
squishysama1
Hanachan459
Mayrena
kuronekolucy
BouHime
Miica
Reino1
xXProtoplasmXx
RuushiiHime
SerenityFray
Kikyu
jrock10ver
amuto45
Naavidya
nessita
its your turn to play HAVE FUN!!!
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Its FOREVER right??? Sorry but iv just been busy and idk i dont feel like sharing my life like i used to. Perhaps its bcos no one really seems to leave comments... which just seems like ppl dont really care but anyways its not about that is it, so im gonna try to post more journals here again!!!
Dir en Grey - Age Quod Agis Tour 2011 - Chicago
i was really lookn forward to this tour... since it was for the release of DUM SPIRO SPERO!!! Now just to let you guys that dont k...
Read more (691 words more)Its FOREVER right??? Sorry but iv just been busy and idk i dont feel like sharing my life like i used to. Perhaps its bcos no one really seems to leave comments... which just seems like ppl dont really care but anyways its not about that is it, so im gonna try to post more journals here again!!!
Dir en Grey - Age Quod Agis Tour 2011 - Chicago
i was really lookn forward to this tour... since it was for the release of DUM SPIRO SPERO!!! Now just to let you guys that dont know I LIVE NO WHERE NEAR CHICAGO... this is an 8hr drive for me to see Dir en Grey!!! No im not complaining DIRU came from all the way from Japan so they win the distance contest. But its not easy for me to get to them but i posted pics via my Twitter so i will post those here now... THE ROAD TO CHICAGO!!!
this was taken as we [me n my bf] hit the interstate.
this one is when we got to Illinois.
and this is when we reached Chicago!!!
once we got to the hotel which was super nice btw... we were STARVING!!! so my bf went down n asked the desk person [who was amazingly friendly and funny] where to get a pizza from so we ordered our pizza...
OMG it was the best!!! Pepperoni, sausage and spinach... i had forgotten how good Chicago Pizza is!!! [FYI: i was born in Illinois not Chicago but still we had amazing pizza when i was a kid.]
shortly after we went to sleep... we got up went down to have our complementary breakfast. When we came back up i was gonna open the curtains. Here is the lovely view out our window:
the parking garage... I LOVE THE CITY!!!
it was time to start getting ready for the concert... and i realized why it takes me so long to get ready, look at all this:
and that aint even ALL my makeup. i had picked out exactly what i wanted to use so i only took what i needed!!! lol
for those of you who follow me on twitter...
i went with the bottom ones!!!
so it almost show time...
one last look at our tickets!!!
most of the pics i took came out BAD... but i did also get a few vids so here you go guys!!!
and my Age Quod Agis Tour shit...
the vids:
this is Kyo doing what Kyo does best.
this one im super proud of... Toshiya's Moment.
and a little Fanservice from Kyo!!!
I KNOW YOU CANT REALLY SEE WHAT HE IS DOING!!! but he is petting and licking the mic it was OMFG HOTT!!!
so there you go... Dir en Grey - Age Quod Agis Tour 2011 - Chicago
till next time...
byebyes
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Hellos... well i know i havnt been around on JPA much lately, but most of my really good friends havnt been here either and i miss them. Honestly JPA just isnt the same anymore... i miss the “old” JPA but change is part of life so im going to embrace it. I hope my old friends who are not here much can start coming back to JPA and to the GazettE Forum we are the ones who got it to almost PART 10!!! That is JPA history we made... i understand that a few of you are not as into the Gaz...
Read more (806 words more)Hellos... well i know i havnt been around on JPA much lately, but most of my really good friends havnt been here either and i miss them. Honestly JPA just isnt the same anymore... i miss the “old” JPA but change is part of life so im going to embrace it. I hope my old friends who are not here much can start coming back to JPA and to the GazettE Forum we are the ones who got it to almost PART 10!!! That is JPA history we made... i understand that a few of you are not as into the GazettE as you once were but that dont mean we all cant b on JPA and all be friends. The newbies here need us to befriend them and show them around this place
Anyways... i have been thinkn and i realized something the other day. WE LIVE IN PUBLIC. We have our lives online. I have a profile here on JPA, iv got a tumblr, a Twitter, YouTube, Skype and a PhotoBucket. I also have two e-mails one Yahoo and one Gmail. Im on my laptop right now but i also have a mini laptop and my phone which all get my e-mail and can go to my favorite sites and there isnt a day that goes by that i dont get on the internet. I live online... my friends are online, my blogs are online, my poems, my music, my pics i even met my boyfriend online right here on JPA we live together he moved to be with me n now in March we are moving to Boston to b with his family. My life is online. But where does that leave us??? Can we live online... or will this inevitably b our downfall??? The opening to my profile says “What things do you share with the world... and what secrets do you keep? ” I wrote that not really thinkn bout the impact those words had or the truth they would come to possess. I consider myself a rather private person... but im not shy and according to a very good friend of mine im “non judgmental and shameless” but there are alota things from my past, present and im sure things i will do in the future that i wouldnt want ppl to know. Yea i have pics of myself posted here and on other social sites but its not like im naked or doing anything embarrassing or compromising. I dont blog about my private life what happens in my bedroom is between me and whoever was there. But there are ppl who share everything via blogs, video and Twitter. What does it mean??? I admit when i post something here or on my tumblr blog or on Twitter i want ppl to reblog, retweet, comment, like and reply to it. And if they dont i feel stupid and like i dont matter... why do we base our value on what ppl we have never met think of us??? Does having 100 followers vs 20 followers make you a better person? If 70 ppl read this journal vs 150 did i fail? This is big think about it... i post things on tumblr all the time. Things that are important and special to me but no one reblogs them or even clicks the like and then i feel empty and stupid for having bothered to post it. Its kinda scary... but its true we are all seeking validation we want to b noticed, we want approval. Iv always considered myself a “DONT GIVE A SHIT” kinda person and when it comes to real life i mostly dont but online iv discovered that i care more than i think. I want acceptance, i want to b seen and heard i want the world to know that I AM HERE!!! We are all on the internet for hours a day googling, Tweeting, on YouTube, tumblr, FaceBook and millions of other sites... but i think the thing we are really searching for is, OURSELVES.
Idk i wa just thinkn bout the internet and how its changing the world... the way we interact with each other, the way we meet ppl and the way we express ourselves to others. The internet gives a great freedom i have friends from all over the world but as i sit here on my laptop tweeting with my friends, googling things, downloading pics to my photobucket and adding to my tumblr blog. My boyfriend sits here next to me playin xbox, with his mini laptop in case he needs to lookup something and his phone to catch e-mails, texts and calls. And the rest of my family are downstairs watchin TV or on computers as well... so while we are all connected to the world we are very disconnected from the real ppl and the real world we live in. We have 9 devices in my house between 4 ppl that can go on the internet. Im using 3 right now. Just to get everyone thinking!!!
And a couple pics of me... my blue has faded and is now almost a silver but these are the last pics of my blue. I will b completely reinventing my hair in mid October!!!
Thank Yous for reading...
byebyes
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i know its been FOREVER since i wrote a journal :( iv just been trying to get out more... i LOVE my online life but you gotta get out and enjoy the real world too sometimes. But now that i am here i have a surprise i actually wrote another poem... for those of you who dont know, i cant write when im happy and ever since i found my current boyfriend happiness is all around me but yea the trade off is i cant write T_T this time it was music that inspired me. For anyone who would like to read my ot...
Read more (311 words more)i know its been FOREVER since i wrote a journal 
iv just been trying to get out more... i LOVE my online life but you gotta get out and enjoy the real world too sometimes. But now that i am here i have a surprise i actually wrote another poem... for those of you who dont know, i cant write when im happy and ever since i found my current boyfriend happiness is all around me but yea the trade off is i cant write this time it was music that inspired me. For anyone who would like to read my other poems here is my tumblr
- Perfect Flaw -
toxic are the countless words,
you have spoken.
destroyed my world… to wash away the pain.
clear and so apparent now.
the damage that repeated error caused.
this Perfect Flaw.
still it remained a beautiful distraction.
dissatisfaction, a bitter taste…
another failure, hard to swallow.
BETRYAL…
you caused me to break.
iv bled and iv screamed, and so the truth it seems…
the only thing you ever really knew about me,
i didnt have the strength,
to get away.
but fate itself whispered those words to me…
“an end with misery
is better than,
misery without an end.”
this is radical freedom.
its suicide, but you dont have to cry… no tears.
only part of me has died…
the hate, regret and shame.
never thought id get to see the day, i stand…
Unbroken.
-Missa
6/1/11
well i hope its good... i think it is but then i might b a little bias. Hmm... what else is going on, my copy of “Remember the Urge” Limited Edition was shipped i should have it Thursday maybe if not then Friday or Saturday at the latest!!! I colored my hair BLUE, here are a couple pics:
the only other news i have is... IM MOVING TO BOSTON in march!!! Yea thats right im gettn the hell outa this hick infested backwards blackhole of a town!!! and to commemorate this im gettn a tattoo!!! Hey iv got 6 piercings... 2 in my lip, 2 in each ear front holes 0g back holes 10g it was only a matter of time before i got a tattoo!!!
Byebyes...
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OMG... what can i say, its been 3 yrs since i signed up here on JPA!!! My user number is/was under 10,000 so there wernt quite 10,000 members when i joined now there is 60,000!!! I am honored to have been here these past three years JPA has changed my life in sooo sooo many ways... i found a place where i felt wanted and that i belonged, where my love of the somewhat unusual didnt get me the label of FREAK, iv made so many dear friends *hugs* i lov...
Read more (958 words more)OMG... what can i say, its been 3 yrs since i signed up here on JPA!!! My user number is/was under 10,000 [ it was 9200 something] so there wernt quite 10,000 members when i joined now there is 60,000!!! I am honored to have been here these past three years JPA has changed my life in sooo sooo many ways... i found a place where i felt wanted and that i belonged, where my love of the somewhat unusual didnt get me the label of FREAK, iv made so many dear friends *hugs* i love you all, i found the strength to leave my ex, i met my now boyfriend here on JPA!!! This site led me to freedom and to find myself... i am the happiest i have ever been, and i have JPA to thank ARIGATOU!!!
Its really amazing i never thought that i would still b here after all this time... but i love JPA so much, and by JPA i mean everyone [JPA-sama, all the crew, the site itself and everyone on here that makes JPA so amazing] we have the most wonderful community of people... i think of everyone as my family more than just friends, my life would not b the same without this place or without all of you. I want to Thank You ALL for making me fell like i belong... to my closest friends Thank You for being there for me and for helping me through the darkest time in my life *wipes tears* i could not have made it through that without you. Thank You to ALL my crazy obsessed GAZEROCKist fangirl friends in the GazettE forum... you all have made me laugh and feel such love and friendship, so in your honor i shall thank you in the GAZEROCKist way *headbangs* lol I wish i could give shout outs to everyone who has been my friend... but honestly that list would go on forever, and id hate to hurt anyones feelings if i forgot them, so i honor you all, those of you who are the closest to me know who you are, and you know how special and cherished you are
So since i cant show the evolution of JPA... how bout the evolution of Missa, for your amusement, pics of ME over the past 3 years!!!
back in 2008:
2009:
2010:
2011:
and the most rrecent... taken a few days ago:
i have changed ALOT since my first days of JPA!!! I know that some of you probably think the older pics of me with long lighter hair n without the piercings are better... but you have to know that I LOVE the way i look now, and my piercings are symbolic for me [like tattoos are for most ppl] my ex forbid me to get my lip pierced so my first lip piercing [the middle] represents CHANGE, REBIRTH and FREEDOM it is a symbol of the shedding of my old life and the new destiny that now lies before me. My second lip piercing [the right] represents EVOLUTION, PROGRESS and LOVE it is a symbol of the new path im now on, the journey to get to where i am now and the way i feel about my new life. My ear piercings are simply for the look i like gauges!!! lol
and now the bad news... D'espairsRay announced that they are DISBANDING
i feel sooo sooo bad for them... its one thing to disband over differences, but to disband cause you have no other choice and i feel horrible for Hizumi, not only is his throat damaged now his band has chosen to disband... Karyu, ZERO and Tsukasa can at least go on, form a new band join other bands but Hizumi's career is over DAMN this sucks!!! I was extremely fortunate to see them live last year in Chicago on their -Human Clad Monsters Tour- and also lucky to take pics, meet them and get a poster signed by all four of them... they have my best and i wish them all the luck in the world.
in memory D'espairsRay...
you will b forever in our hearts
Anyways... i also have been working on a project/surprise that will make everyone in the GazettE forum very very happy, but since it is a surprise IM NOT TELLING what it is!!! lol but i will reveal it as soon as we reach [PART 8] for those of you reading this that dont go into the GazettE forum yes i said part 8 we are going on part 8 soon!!! 
For those of you who are in the GazettE forum... you guys ROCK n i LOVE you all *headbangs* the GazettE are our Gods of ROCK!!!
till next time...
byebyes
Missa
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OMG this year at AnimeBoston was amazing!!! So now im not going to go into alot of wordy details because i have a ton of pics to show... but first i will show all the cosplay pics, they r just random pics taken by me my boyfriend and his brother!!!
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Read more (1026 words more)OMG this year at AnimeBoston was amazing!!! So now im not going to go into alot of wordy details because i have a ton of pics to show... but first i will show all the cosplay pics, they r just random pics taken by me my boyfriend [zeck] and his brother!!!
So now even though i dont actually cosplay... i do dress in Lolita, so here are a few pics of me the first day was the Girugamesh concert so i was wearing a VK Punk Lolita Outfit.
Day two the main day of the con i was wearing my Sweet Gothic Lolita Outfit... i LOVE this outfit!!!
OKs so i had a third outfit planned it was a Gothic Lolita Outfit... but i ended up not wearing it cause something was going on the third day that i didnt want to be wearing Lolita for, i will explain why very soon!!!
I just Love AnimeBoston its just the most freakn fun no matter where you are or what your doing, with all the cosplayers and panels its just amazing... three days of everything i love all together at once!!! XD lol I already cant wait for next year... and i hope they can land another TOP band like Girugamesh... although i personally would LOVE to have ScReW or BORN at the next AnimeBoston!!!
anyways... so on the first day Fri Girugamesh was having an autograph signing, first of all i would like to say that the chick running the signing was freakn psycho!!! She screamed at us and the shoved us all againgst the wall and threatened that if we didnt follow her instructions perfectly she wouldnt let us get an autograph... well so then there we are in the front of the line, she comes up to us in the front and says “ if there are any of you who dont REALLY REALLY want this autograph please step out of the line so someone who will cry there freakn eyes out if they dont get one will get a ticket i only have fifty to give, and there are way more than 50 ppl in this line so if this isnt life or death for you please please get outa line now!!!” [everyone is silent] she walks over by me and says “FINE THEN!!!” and starts handing out tickets to us like we arnt worthy!!! Now im thinking to myself “hey B!tch i came 1400 miles paid $770 for plane tickets [me n my boyfriend] another $500 for the hotel, $100 for the weekend con passes and another $80 to check our baggage on the plane and $50 for the two Girugamesh shirts to entitle us to get two things signed... now WHO the hell do you think you are to act like I DONT DESERVE THIS!!!” Ooo i just wanted to smack her right in her snotty freakn mouth... idk if anyone did the math but its $1,500!!! Thats alota freakn money... and since i am now sittn here writing this journal to share as much of my experience as i can with all of you, i wish i had more to give you all but here is what i do have. I hope those of you who are fans of Girugamesh enjoy what i got and believe me one of these thing i was NOT supposed to do but i wanted to bring back something for you guys here on JPA!!!
the autographs... one autographed album and an autographed AnimeBoston pamphlet!!!
then they of course had the concert... pics were just hard only a couple that we took came out at all but i did also get a short Vid of the concert!!! Also another vid taken by someone else... it was a hilarious moment we all shared with Girugamesh!!!
well on Sunday the last day of the con and the day i had planed to wear my Gothic Lolita Outfit... i didnt get to wear it because if you had purchased a Girugamesh t-shirt that also got you * drum-roll please * A PICTURE WITH GIRUGAMESH!!!
so lastly they held a panel... a hour with Girugamesh, now we were NOT supposed to take photos or videos but at the very end of the panel, i looked to my boyfriend and said try to get the last part of the panel on vid. Well here it is... its not an hour but we managed to get you guys a few minutes with Girugamesh!!! The first vid is by someone else who also managed to get some of the panel on vid!!!
hope you liked it!!!
till next time...
byebyes
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well a few journals back i had a random thought about posting a journal telling the story of me n my boyfriend... so as promised here it is. It all started almost 3 yrs ago, we met each other right here on JPA :) he signed up and posted a journal about going to see Dir en Grey, i happened to see the new journal post and read it then made a comment on how he was lucky n i wished i could go. He sent me a cookie i dont remember who sent who the fri...
Read more (957 words more)well a few journals back i had a random thought about posting a journal telling the story of me n my boyfriend... so as promised here it is. It all started almost 3 yrs ago, we met each other right here on JPA he signed up and posted a journal about going to see Dir en Grey[October 8th 2008], i happened to see the new journal post and read it then made a comment on how he was lucky n i wished i could go. He sent me a cookie [ahh remember the sends] i dont remember who sent who the friend invite i think he sent it to me, but we became friends real fast... the thing was that i had a boyfriend, an insanely jealous boyfriend who found out about JPA and had a freakn fit!!! He accused me of flirting and “hoeing” around... now im not sure how one can “hoe around” talking to their friends but according to my ex thats what i was doing he saw that i had become friends with a GUY and forbid me to talk to him!!! I actually tried not to and our friendship seemed to slip away as quickly as it had began and thats where you would think the story ends, but that Christmas i was sending “Merry Christmas sends” to everyone and i thought of him n decided to send him one too [i missed him alot] i got no response and so i figured he had forgotten me or was mad since i just stopped talking to him... New Years came n still nothing from him, but then when i figured it was over i got a message from him!!! He hadnt forgotten me he was dealing with some problems of his own which he said the one part in a journal of his, the girl he was seeing told him she loved him... the problem was she then took it back but we started talking again!!! I dont remember what all happened but at some point my ex found out i was talking to him and freakd... and at some point my now boyfriend asked me to come to Boston for AnimeBoston. Now just let me say that i live NO where even remotely near Boston [1400 miles away 
] oh and i had my jealous ex... but since he is my ex i guess its not to hard to figure out what i chose to do. I did end it with my ex. Now for those of you thinking im crazy, evil or both... there are a few things you need to know, my ex and i had been together for 10yrs for 10yrs i had been waiting for him to get his sh!t together so we could get a house and get married [he had a horrible gambling addiction] and after waiting for 10yrs i realized that it was never going to happen and that i couldnt waste my life hopping he would change... so i ended it, i went to Boston and met my now boyfriend!!! Well it turned out we have as much chemistry in person as we did online, so during those 2weeks i was with him in Boston we fell completely in love so we declared May 21 our official date that we got together [that was the day we met for the first time at Logan Airport] and now AnimeBoston is sorta our way to celebrate...
The Story of US !!!
Now for those of you who already dont know i will tell you which JPA member is my boyfriend... his name is zecksegur, he is hardly ever on here anymore but thats kinda my fault im on here so much that i tell him all the new stuff going on and any JPA news so he really dont need to come on!!! lol
and for those of you wondering if we are still 1400 miles apart... the answer is NO, i was originally going to move to Boston, but the economy being so poor he moved to Iowa with me [trust me thats LOVE!!!] but as soon as we can we will be moving to Boston... i have felt like i belonged there since that first trip i took to meet my zecky!!! lol
So now AnimeBoston OMG only 3 weeks away!!!
Im sooo sooo excited... to be back in Boston and the Con and the fact im going to see GIRUGAMESH!!! [we really need that headbanging smiley back!!!] anyways... so the hotel and plane are booked, we are registered at the con and i have my three Lolita outfits planned to wear at the con.
Day one Friday April 22nd - since that is the day i will be seeing Girugamesh im wearing a Punkish/VK Lolita outfit cause i want to be ready to ROCK!!!
Day two Saturday April 23rd - this is the main day so im wearing my favorite outfit it is a Sweet Gothic Lolita outfit... i LOVE this outfit, the skirt is from BODYLINE it was a separate but the top doesnt fit well i can put it on but, lets just say i have more in the bust department than your average Japanese Loli would lol So i had to coordinate a different look to go with the skirt, fortunately the top had a removable bow which matches the skirt so that really helped to tie the look together!!!
Day three Sunday April 24th - mostly just a hang out day last chance to buy from the dealers room and catch a few panels, so for this day i wanna be a bit more comfortable... im wearing a Gothic Lolita OP, a very classic loli look!!!
i plan to post lotsa pics of the con and Boston when i get back... i hope i can get at least one good pic of me in each outfit, i cant take them myself and my boyfriend is no photographer [sorry zecky lol] well im also horribly un-photogenic but we will try!!!
So there it is the story of me and my zecky hope you enjoyed it...
till next time, [insert waving smiley]
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well thats what the quiz said anyways... there are aspects of my life where i have failed, but im workn on those. So before i post the quiz i do have some things to tell... first me n my boyfriend booked our hotel in Boston the plane tickets are next, April 20th we leave for Boston, MA!!! I am sooo sooo excited i cant wait to get back to Boston... I LOVE IT there!!! <3 Its just beautiful and has so much going on, another reason i want to eventually move there is i know they have lolitas n ...
Read more (555 words more)well thats what the quiz said anyways... there are aspects of my life where i have failed, but im workn on those. So before i post the quiz i do have some things to tell... first me n my boyfriend booked our hotel in Boston the plane tickets are next, April 20th we leave for Boston, MA!!! I am sooo sooo excited i cant wait to get back to Boston... I LOVE IT there!!! Its just beautiful and has so much going on, another reason i want to eventually move there is i know they have lolitas n i would just love to actually go to a loli meet up, i have all these loli clothes n i cant wear them except at AnimeBoston
next thing is i went last Saturday night and got... my lip pierced again!!!
so what you guys think??? [these pic were taken right after so there is some swelling] I originally wanted this piercing but because of my work i got the labret in the middle... since it would be easier to hide, but now who the hell cares they forced me outa that job. So i figured now im free to get the lip piercing i really wanted!!! Like i said im gonna try to get hired at Hot Topic when i get back from Boston and if not there then somewhere similar... some place that i can be ME piercings and all.
and now here is the quiz:
[x ] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x ] You have your own room.
[x ] You own a cell phone.
[x ] You have an mp3 player/ipod/discman.
[x ] Your parents are still married.
[x ] You love your family (more or less!)
[ ] There is a pool/spa in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 6
[x ] You dress the way you want to.
[x ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x ] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[x ] You have never been beaten up
[x ] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x ] Your room is big enough for you.
[x ] People don't use you for something you have.
[x ] You have been to the movies.
T 0 T A L: 8
[ ] You have over 500 friends on facebook [dont have a facebook]
[ ] You have pictures on facebook [dont have a facebook]
[x ] Your parents let you have a facebook [they really would have no choice im over 18]
[im a little old for that! ] You get allowance/loan.
[x ] You collect something normal.
[x ] You look forward to going to college
[x ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[x ] You want to do something after school/college
T 0 T A L: 5
[x ] You own a car/truck.
[x ] You usually don't fight with your parent(s).
[ ] You have never got a failing grade on a report card in your life.
[x ] You have friends.
[ ] You've never had a detention
T O T A L: 3
[more or less ] You know what is going on in the world.
[x ] You are happy with your life.
[x ] You usually aren't sick.
[workn on it! ] You know more than one language.
[x ] You have a screen name.
[x ] You own a pet.
[x ] You know the words to more than 5 songs. [in Japanese no less lol]
[x ] You don't have any enemies.
T O T A L: 7
Total over all: 32
times it by 3 = 72%
101%+: A+
90-100%: A
80-89%: B
70-79%: C
60-69%: D
00-59%: F
repost saying "I got a (your score) in life"
96% an “A” i got an “A” go me!!! lol
till next time...
byebyes [insert waving smiley]
Missa
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So last Monday i went and got my hair done FINALLY... it had been 2 months!!! This time i wasnt messing around... i took my laptop with me and showed my amazing stylist Heidi exactly what i wanted, because this time i could do ANYTHING I WANTED!!! Yep this time its all about ME!!! No nagging ex telling me “not to short” or “no crazy colors, something simple” cause heaven forbid anyone notice ME!!! My current boyfriend would never tell me what to do with MY hair [love em for that <3 ...
Read more (771 words more)So last Monday i went and got my hair done FINALLY... it had been 2 months!!! This time i wasnt messing around... i took my laptop with me and showed my amazing stylist Heidi exactly what i wanted, because this time i could do ANYTHING I WANTED!!! Yep this time its all about ME!!! No nagging ex telling me “not to short” or “no crazy colors, something simple” cause heaven forbid anyone notice ME!!! My current boyfriend would never tell me what to do with MY hair [love em for that and the story of me n him i will have to tell you guys sometime, random thought lol] anyways... since Saturday would be my last day at work, i really didnt give a sh!t what they thought, if they really wanted to send me home over my hair on one of my last two days then whatever b!tches!!! lol So since i freakn LOVE LOVE LOVE my hair... i thought i would share it with all of you:
Well what you guys think??? I just wanted something a bit extreme... something that would stand out, something that showed im not afraid to express myself, ya know kinda... FEARLESS!!! Well idk if it says all that but i LOVE IT!!! lol
SATURDAY... damn as excited as i am to not have to go back to work and deal with the Queen B!tch or her two B!tchesses, i am seriously gonna miss my residents. Its because to me we are more than that, we are friends truly more like family... over the past 4 ½ yrs we all have become more like family. I think i must have hugged everyone in the building at least twice [i hugged Olga every time we crossed each others path]... they wished me the best of luck, they made me promise to come visit, and they shed tears cause no one wanted me to leave. When they said “NO... Why are you leaving?!?” i told the truth, i said exactly this “ well i used to have 5 days, then 4, then 3 now 2 after 2 is 1 and well we all know what comes after that.” “ Im being shown the door, iv just chose to walk out it before i get that final shove. I know when im not wanted.” and thats the truth!!! If miss Pam has a problem with that... well she can go to hell, cause im NOT lying to my friends about why im leaving them. Its NOT Harmony Court business its MY personal business and i will tell that to whomever i want!!! They all made me feel very loved which made it that much harder to say Good-Bye in the 4 ½ yrs iv been there ALOTA people have come and gone, but NEVER have i seen the residents as emotional as they were on Saturday... never had anyone gotten such praise and so many tears as i did it broke my heart and touched me at the same time, i had a real impact on them and they truly loved me as much as i loved them... BITTERSWEET I gave my address to Olga so she can give that to anyone who wants it... i also promised to write to Olga and she could tell everyone how i am, and they made me promise i would visit them. I said i would... if im not banned from the building then Olga said “well just ring my apartment i will let you in!!!” lmao she was absolutely right there isnt a resident there that if i rang their apartment they wouldnt let ME in, so there take that PAM!!!
so Saturday being my last day and all... iv decided to get my lip pierced again, i have the labret in the middle [as you can see in the above pics] so now i want a captive ball on the right!!! I know this will drive my poor mother crazy... and believe me that is NOT the reason i want it, i want it because thats the piercing i originally wanted. I got the labret in the middle cause of work, i knew it wouldnt show as much, but now i dont have to care bout that!!! I think im gonna go and get it as soon as possible i would like it to be healed up by the time i go to Boston... which is a little less then 2 months away, and i need to gauge my ears the final step from 2g to 0g!!!
I dont know what is going to happen... its a weird feeling, scary yet very free!!! I hope this all happened for a reason... i hope it happened because the world has something greater in store for me, something that will help me change the world, i have always felt a sense of great purpose within myself idk why its just always been there. Maybe this is the beginning.
till next time...
byebyes [insert waving smiley]
Missa
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Damn its been a long time... but with all the things going on in my life i just havnt found the time to write a new journal. My personal life is fine... great actually, but my work life has really taken a turn for the worse. After 4yrs n 6mo at my job... a job i truly loved, with people i really liked and residents that were more like family that clients. We had a great place... but since the Queen B!tch took over and hired her two little B!tchesses [thats the equivalent of a princess for b!...
Read more (902 words more)Damn its been a long time... but with all the things going on in my life i just havnt found the time to write a new journal. My personal life is fine... great actually, but my work life has really taken a turn for the worse. After 4yrs n 6mo at my job... a job i truly loved, with people i really liked and residents that were more like family that clients. We had a great place... but since the Queen B!tch took over and hired her two little B!tchesses [thats the equivalent of a princess for b!tches] things havnt been nor will they ever be the same... the Queen B!tch already got rid of two of my co-workers/friends and is workn on me and Carol [who has been with the company almost 12yrs and at the rather young age of 50 just lost her husband after an 8yr battle with kidney failure, she is one of the nicest and strongest woman i have had the pleasure of knowing] so due to a change of fortune, my boyfriend got a great new job and so on Wednesday i put in my resignation its sad. I hate to leave but for my own sanity i have to... i HATE going to work, i HATE being there [except for being with my residents] i cant sleep at night cause i dont wanna have to wake up n go there. I hate feeling this way... but a couple of weeks ago me n Carol were talking and we realized “what are we fighting for... theres no one left here, everything that was good about Harmony Court is gone.” We fought the Queen B!tch but we are tired of fighting so im DONE. Its about respect and these dumb B!tches are cold hearted... my boss the Queen B!tch took my hrs away i was fulltime 5 days a week, then in January 4 days a week, February 3 days a week, and i just got the new March schedule... 2 freakn days a week!!! That just dont pay my bills and isnt worth the stress they are putting me through. I hate to leave my residents... i will miss them all terribly but i cant stay any longer i dont have any plans to get a new job... so im just gonna take some time off, we take our trip to Boston at the end of April, so when we get back i will look for a new job. Im thinkn Hot Topic cause im tired of not getting to have my hair the way i really want and i want to get another lip piercing... at Hot Topic they would encourage that!!! lol
As for Boston... this will be my 3rd year at AnimeBoston!!! I cant believe its been that long since the first time i went, i was invited by my friend whom i met here on JPA, [and mind you that i live no where near Boston] that trip was amazing my first trip alone, my first time on a plane and all to meet [in real life] a guy friend i met online and go to my first Anime Con!!! Now this year i will get to see another JPA friend who happens to live in Boston [its up to them if they wanna tell who they are lol] and i will have the honor and privilege of seeing and hopefully meeting... Girugamesh!!!
They will be there for one day only... but im soooo freakn excited!!!
Also STEREOPONY... will be there idk much about them but im lookn forward to seeing them perform and hopefully meeting and getting autographs.
So for “the new JPA” well i admit at first i was very very unhappy... but now that we have our GazettE vids back [plus some new ones even ] im overall pretty happy, i do miss our emoticons/smileys the headbanging and praying ones especially, the drooling and waving smileys so many of them i miss, and i dont like that when you click on the profiles the first thing that comes up is the “WALL” it should be the “about me” not the wall, hell i dont even really care for my “WALL” but whatever also what is with the freakn “CELEBRITIES” crap... i mean seriously wtf is this freakn HOLLYWOOD or something??? They are artists... they make music!!! Well the bands i listen to do... idk i just think it sounds silly to call them “celebrities”
and lastly the one thing i am still very MAD 
about is the loss of my beloved HOUSES!!! i miss them terribly and want them back... they just made me really happy, oh and i spent a sh!tload of Jpops on them!!! I dont want “shares” they are STUPID!!! [thats right squishy stupid i am calling the shares stupid!!! lol] the houses may have been “virtual” but i could go to the artist page and see my avvy on that street n it made me smile, or i could go n look at the list of all the houses i owned!!! Now its like yea i own some shares yippee... its nothing but numbers, a waste of Jpops and completely pointless bleh
so there it is my life as of right now... one other thing i had been planning to update my profile but since JPA was gonna change i hadnt bothered since i figured it would just get lost or ruined during the changes, so now i have updated my profile, im still working on it some more but its almost done!!! I should have some pics in my next journal of some new lolita things iv bought for AnimeBoston
byebyes [insert waving smiley]
Missa
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