You know, I've never had much confidence about myself. I used to be bullied alot when I was in junior high. And they always gave me nicknames that expressed a flaw about my appearance ( fat, ugly, whatever they thought that was wrong about me..).
So here's the thing. I started working at a place a few months ago and the second day the guys who I work with already gave me a nickname. And it didn't take to long before EVERYONE ( the males ) started to call me by that nickname. Even the ones I rarely talk to. At first I didn't give it much thought but later on I started to get insecure and wondering why they gave me that nickname. I even tried translation sites to see if it meant anything in Chinese ( Yup, they're Chinese ). But I couldn't find a thing.
So today one of the guys called me. ( yup, by my nickname ) So I asked him about that nickname and he was like: "You don't know???" So I was like, No, I don't >.<.
It turns out that my name looks a lot like the name of a soccer player so they decided that it should be my nickname. *Sigh*
Which reminds me, one of them asked me one time when I was going to play my next soccer match ( like wtf !? I don't play soccer...). Now I know what he meant...
Coulnd't they have told me that BEFORE I started to get paranoid. >.<
Men...

That's right! Okonomiyaki.

Ok, here's the story.
Last week I had a birthday which was kinda fun. We went out for dinner with his mom ( the birthdaboy's) and another friend of ours to a Japanese restaurant. I actually ate sushi for the first time! ( I don't like fish so I assumed I wouldn't like sushi.. I was wrong. )
Anyway, so Tanya ( our friend ) is the kinda person who spills out every single thing that comes to her mind. So she told his mom that she loves Okonomiyaki and somehow involved me into it while I was just quietly eating my sushi. And so his mom told us that she would make some home-made Okonomiyaki for us. Which was last thursday.
It was my first time eating Okonomiyaki and I loved it! So if you never tried Okonomiyaki I'd suggest you to do so..
It's like a pancake filled with vegetables with meat on top. Just google it.

Uh..today nothing special I guess.. went to the movies ( Max Payne ) and had some Chinese food afterwards ( with hot guys serving our food!!)

That's what Tanya thought when she saw him. And with him I mean that gorgeous guy from work.

Let's begin from the start shall we?

Tanya wanted to go out to dinner with me and 2 other friends. So we did..
Only, the place where we wanted to go was closed.. like.. why O_O !!?
A change in plans, like what were we going to do.. the guys were hungry and Tanya and I ate some Onigiri she made and some döner ( its Turkish ) before we headed out so we werent thát hungry. So Jesbie ( one of the guys ) decided to go to this Chinese restaurant he often goes to. And we were like, sure why not. When we finally arrived we had to wait for 10 minutes to get a table and while we were waiting Tanya suddenly screamed which scared the crap outta me. So I tried to follow her eyes in to see why she screamed and when I saw the reason I screamed too. It was a guy from work with his group of friends (yummy!) and they decided to join us for dinner. In the end we were with 10 people and it was a lot of fun. Me and the guys decided to put a lot of hot spices into Jesbie's bowl. I felt mischievious.. but he could handle it. ( UNFORTUNATELY!)

After we finished eating we made our way to the subway where we met another guy from work. Like.. where the heck did HE came from O_O. So we travelled a bit together and then Koichi, Tanya and me needed to transfer onto another subway-tram and decided to get some Starbucks. ( It was Koichi's treat, why not. ) And after that we all went home.

Overal a very fun night, and I'm pleased to know that somebody wasn't very happy. Well screw you betch~

And, some more good news. I ordered some goods from Kat-tun and H!S!J and they arrived the day after which made me very happy.

Bye~

I was trying to run for it. Ever since I was 12 years old, I tried to hide it. In classrooms always sitting in front row. On the streets pretending I could read the signs up ahead.
I think that you can guess what I mean. I need glasses! Well, actually.. not really but it's getting really annoying now. When I was 12 the doctor said that my eyesight wasn't developing properly like the rest of my body ( huh? ) So I'd have to wear glasses but just for one year or so. I quit after 6 months or so. It annoyed me..
So I just decided to sit in every front row there is.. but to tell you the truth, my eyesight have improved.. I no longer need to squeeze my eyes in order to read the subtitles on tv( not that I need to, I just read them for fun and sometimes they're way off. >.< ).
But I still can't read the blackboard at school and I can't sit in the front row.. ( somehow everyone is trying to hide something I guess..) So now I decided for myself to go see the.. err.. forgot the English word for it.. let's just call it the eyedoctor and get myself checked up. But the machine they use scare me ;_;. And I'm just writing this to write the fear of of me.. And I actually need to get going because my appointment is in 30 minutes!

So, thank you for reading this and I hope everything goes well.

Much love.

Edit: I have -1.00 and a -1.00 cilinder .. don't know how to say it in English, I hope ya'll get it. But I do need glasses..

Hello~
I went to Abunaicon today and it was kinda awesome! I saw great shows, great cosplayers, I walked a lot around town in search for a friggin' McDonalds ( which we found, YAY! Hurray for my McDonalds searching trained senses ). And I also saw my annoying stalker ex boyfriend with his lady companion who hates me now ( I'll come back to that ) and that backstabbing betch I used to be friends with.

☆ It started this morning. My friends and I agreed that we'd take the 08:09 train to Zwolle ( city in east Holland ). So at 8 I got a phone call from Elmo(friend number 1 ): "Are you ready?" - Yesh! "Is Tanya ready?" - Dunno, she hasn't called, I'll call as soon as we hang up. "K". So we hung up.. Then, as promised, I called Tanya. "(sleepy voice) Hello?" - NOOOO!!!! WHY ARE U STILL ASLEEP GO SHOWER AND DRESS BEFORE I WHOOP YOUR ASS! "Oops.. K!". So I was pretty annoyed since I had to wake up so early for nothing! ( I hate mornings! ) So Elmo and I aggreed to meet at the station at 08:15. And there we waited.. and waited.. and then I got a call from Tanya at 8:45 saying that she has to wait for the tram to come and then she had to transfer onto the subway to get to the station. So.. after 5 minutes her tram came and it didn't took her long to get to the station. But she saw the subway leave when she got out of the train. So Elmo and I panicked and we were like: NOOZ!!! what time does the next one comes! Well at 09:05.. So we were like.. but the train leaves at 09:09. So eventually Elmo and I decided to take the subway towards her ( which also came at 09:05 and she could get on to it and together we would go to the next big station were our train would make a stop too. And we made it! We beat the train to the station! So we were on our way ( 2 long hours ) to Zwolle.

★ So when we arrived I called Roxas ( Good friend Rachél crossplayed as Roxas!) to pick us up since we had no idea where to go. We figured out later that it was across the street. Yes, we're stupid.. So then Elmo received a call from my stalker ex boyfriend ( Yes, my phone is not working atm so I was saved. ) saying that he was on his way. Did we care? No. So later on, Roxas was like: LOOK THERE HE IS. And I went liek: KYAAAAA!!!!! *runs back outside and hides behind a rock*. Appearantly he saw me and was like: "Wtf". And here it comes.. that ladyfriend he took with him ( I've known her sometime over the internet and I never liked her and I didn't want her to see me irl but that basterd told her it was me!) thought I was being childish and hates me now I guess. 'cause when we (unfortunately) saw them a couple of times more she gave us an evil glare. Did it work? No.

☆ But to make an already too long story shorter, I kept running from him and that stupid little betch and also from the betch who used to be my friend which I only talked to once today ( YAY ).

Well, that's it for now! <33

さよなら。

Hi every body, like the title selfexplained, it really has been a while! O___O.
Well, I'm back, I'll try to come and take a look every day from now on but I can't promise anything. So.. I guess I'd just tell you about what happened since my last journal.

☆Well first, I broke up with my boyfriend. Why? He annoyed me. I couldn't stand him anymore. Not that breaking up helped.. He keeps bothering me. Why wont some men accept things right from the start.

★Err, I started school again...I haven't been going to school last year so it's really hard for me to wake up in the mornings. But I'll do my best so I'll get my certificate next summer so that I can go do, what we call in Dutch, HAVO [high school, one degree higher then I'm about to achieve next summer] or MBO [College]. I'll see what I'll do.. I have to decide fast though.

☆A girl whom I thought she was my friend stabbed me in the back. She knew I liked a guy but yet she went out with him and did god knows what kind of stuff with him. And yes, SHE asked HIM out and also lied about it telling me that it's a bad guy and I shouldn't consider going out with him. And I, yes I am stupid, thought I just should give her a second chance. And so I did. But then she went and did the same to another friend which is now a good friend of mine. But, how can you tell someone that grew up with you that it's time for her to get the hell out of your life?

★Well, good things came from that !@#$@'s backstabbing. I gained a new trustworthy friend who is also interested in Jpop/Jrock and J-doramas <33. And because of her I also started to listen to K-pop. She also let me in on a 'secret'. A Japanese bookstore !! In Amstelveen ( which is around the corner for me ) is a little mall with like 3 Asian restaurants, err little grocery shops 1 Korean and 1 Japanese with ofcourse the native products ! <3 And the Japanese bookstore with ofcourse the native books and magazines!! The magazines are expensive but heck, they come all the way from Japan and the man has to pay a high prize to get hem all to Holland. So ye, I spent 10 euros on a magazine with a lot of jummy Johnny's bands. This magazine is called "Popolo interview magazine for ladies contents". Even though I can't read Hiragana/Katakana/Kanji yet it didn't stop me from buying it! *drools over pictures* If I had a scanner I would show you but I don't.. Maybe I should buy one with my next paycheck.

☆And last coming up, Abunaicon. It's a convention for all of you who loves the Japanese cultures and ofcourse Anime and Manga. I'm going ( on the saturday ) and I'm going to cosplay for the very first time! I'm going as Naruto's Hyuuga Hinata and I'm really looking forward to it. The only downpart to this day is that that backstabbing @!#@! is going to be there and my ex boyfriend... : ( .. sigh..I'll just wont let them bother me.

Well, that's it for this time. <33

さよなら。

I have actually no idea why I am doing this.. Maybe because I'm bored and have nothing to do at the moment. Oh well, might as well write something down that you people might find interesting.

Hmm.. most of you must know that the finals of the EuroCup was held the 29th in Vienna? Correct me if I'm wrong. It was a match between Spain and Germany and Spain won like YAY. The match itself was a real nailbiter for me..They won with 1-0.
Germany just had to make one goal and then it would be a tie, but they didnt ( thank god, sorry for all the germans here)! So I was actually really happy so me and my two best friends went into town with our Spanish flag and we found some other Spain supporters on the Leidseplein here in Amsterdam. It was kinda fun .

Well enough about soccer... My boyfriend went on vacation this morning and he thought it was funny to wake me up. I'm going to torture him when he gets back. IF I don't forget, that is. You guys may help me think of good ways to torture him! Just let your imagination do the work and write it all down to me! Muahaha.

Oke.. I'm getting scary, sorry guys... errr...I have nothing else to say for now..
Except that a good friend of mine is having his birthday today so ; Toto, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!

Oh and don't you girls also love Zack Fair?? ( final fantasy ). I think he's gorgeous.. .. omg I have fallen inlove with a game character.

I'm such a goofball.. I'm going to leave you all alone ( for now )

Untill next time!

さよなら。