So last night I was all psyched to go out drinking with some friends. I had invited Matt out the to go the day before so I thought he was coming? *confused*

Then last night Angie calls me and says he won't come because he's too busy with friends. Oh well fine, at least me and angie were still on right?

Not.

An hour later she calls me and says she doesn't feel good. She sounded fine, we were a go not even an hour before.WTF???

I'm so sick of people right now I just want to scream!

I had a freakin' awful thanksgiving the this to top off the weekend.

Ugh...

Maybe the most sucky thanksgiving ever.

What am I thankful for? Having a job...

What am I not thankful for?
My job not giving me friday off so I could go to missouri and see my family.

So I had one very very lonely, boring Thanksgiving.

Blah

Oopsy

Eek triple post? Sorry jpa

I've never wanted to be one of those girls who had such a bad attitude towards men but...they really do suck.

I've yet to meet one that treated me right. The one that might have I let slip through my hands, but for all the right honorable reasons.

This weekend I had the opportunity to catch up with him. I had found his email when I was cleaning out my address book. I won't say I had forgotten about him...I thought about him a lot over the years but I was married. No matter how miserable my marriage was I wouldn't set myself for more heartache than I'd already been through.

So, I sent him an email and my phone number. I was really down over a few things and didn't think I'd hear from him so quickly but not even 15 minutes later my phone rang. It was so funny...

Maynard: "Re..."
Me: "holys***....Maynard..."

Then our conversation just took off as if we didn't have 4 years seperating us. I don't know that anything would ever come of it. We have such different lives now; but its good to have a friend I cared for so much back in my life.

My dates were off...

I read it wrong and thought Dir En Grey was playing here tonite...nope, it was thursday. Now, all my chances of seeing them are totally gone. That's what I get for being so f***in' busy all the time and not keeping up with things.

ah well, story of my life so it seems.

grrrrr

In other news...

oh wait, there is no other news.
I'm just very

emoticons: expressing emotions without vulgarity.

Thanks JPA! lol

Alright Kids and non-kids...

Eeeek. My journals are few and far between these days are they not?

I've had so much going on in my life thus far though...much I'd rather not discuss. So, those of you who do know about such things, keep it on the DL will ya? lol

Things I would like to talk about:
My new place. Yes, I got one. I'm pretty much moved in, and let me tell ya- I sleep much better at night knowing that I'm that much closer to being completely on my own. I need a great deal of furniture, need to buy a tv, etc. And on top of that I'm super broke, but hey- no complaints really. The quiet has been giving me time to get in some much needed art time which I've neglected over the past few years. Amazingly enough, I can still draw! haha

So many things to talk about, but my mind seems to be blocking it...

I miss you guys! I get no forum time these days it seems. Ah well.

I hope everyone is well. So many new people I haven't met. So to all of you I haven't gotten to welcome- sorry and I send a mass WELCOME TO JPA!!

Have fun everybody!!!!!

F*** yes!
Excuse me...

Ehem

Dir en grey is coming to First Ave on nov. 22...and guess where I live? That's right...45 minutes from First Ave!!!!!!!!!

I don't care what in the hell my friends listen to, their getting a crash course in jrock that night. I can't wait to see them!!!!!!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!


*squeals*

So exciting!

Oh on another note, I got my conch pierced. Pictures to come when its not such a bloody mess. Most painful piercing to date!

I'm over Miyavi's change of life he's going through. Though I will miss those piercings greatly...

So silly, I know. We all grow older though hm?

I've had another rough week but I can feel a break is coming- I know it.
This week was especially stressful. My little bro is in quite a tough situation. I'd rather not get into it in great detail but let's just say it isn't a good thing and it really sucks not being able to be home with my family at the moment to help get everyone through the situation.

My ex is doing quite alright and improving day by day for anyone who was wondering.
And yes, Kal, I'm doing just fine.
Yes, Aysan, I am a dirty girl...
Karolina, I'M SO EXCITED YOUR BACK AGAIN!!!
and anyone I haven't talked to lately- Hope all is well!!!

I miss not having as much time to spend on here

HAVE FUN EVERYONE!

http://community.livejournal.com/masakarasu/83147.html

YOU TOOK OUT YOUR LIPRING WAAAAAAHHHHHHH?????????????????


HOLY FREAKIN' GOOD GOD WHA??????

Is my heart breaking over a lipring? oh geez....


NO WAAAAAYYYYYY

I'm throwing a tantrum as we speak.

ohhhhhhhhhh




Childish journal I've written to date.

I'm going to hold a memorial service for myv's piercings lol.

Oh Myvers...

Yes, I'm still alive.

I haven't had near enough time to spend on here lately.
Recently my "ex" returned home from the hospital. He isn't officially diagnosed as of yet but he should be tomorrow. So for all of you wondering if he's doing ok...he is.

I've totally been neglecting the JPA world though and I miss it so much! There's so many new vids I haven't gotten to watch yet- AAAAHHH!!!!!

I've mostly just been working a whole helluva lot, watching my little one and desperately trying to find the time in a seemingly very short 24 hour day to get a moment to myself. So now that I have it...it's time for videos.

BYE! lol

I've escaped!!!!! I finally couldn't take it anymore The stir craziness was finally just too much to handle. When the nurse was in the room I started dancing like Mr. Bean and I'm fairly positive they thought there was something wrong with me.

Well, they're probably right but that isn't the issue.

The point is, I have a babysitter, I'm not in the hospital and I can play music and sing as loud as I want. I am, and I will continue to do so. Gackuto-san, You are no match for me tonight! I will out vibrato you anytime!!!!

Gives an entire new meaning to "good vibrations" me thinks...

I am SOOOOOO tired. I should be in bed instead of writing a journal on here but I feel like I've been neglecting my precious JPA mates.

The bad stuff- my whatever the hell you want to call him guy is not better yet. The word is, though, since he appears to not be infectious he may be released to go home. He'll then see other specialists to look at a different avenue of treatment. Supposedly these unexplained fevers work themselves out over time; or so the doctor said. Great...moving on.

I'm having a great time at my job. I'll admit, it isn't the most fun thing to do; but the people make it worth it. I haven't gotten to go outside and do my usual picture taking, or really do anything fun for that matter. I hardly get to see my little one since I split my time up between the hospital and work mostly- maybe only a couple hours a day which stinks at the moment.

I'd love to go out and do something fun...just doesn't seem to be in the cards. Not this weekend anyway. Hope everyone else had a better time than I've been having!!! lol

Well, I know that's how my ex is feeling right now...
Considering all the tests, poking, sticking, pushing, prodding...he's on a lot of drugs, let's just put it that way.

I've been having to split my time between the hospital, my son, and work which is certainly taking a toll on me but I figure it's nothing like my ex is feeling so I can make it through pretty much anything.
Hopsitals are such a sucky place to be. He can't sleep very well. They're constantly having to move his IV because it's not staying in very well.

No, we still don't have an answer as to what he may have. He's had xrays done to check for abscesses in places, he's had a bone marrow biopsy, today he had a lumbar puncture and tomorrow he has to have some Tubey Heart test thingy. Technical terminology I assure you. I don't know the proper term.
He's constantly in contact with disease specialists and other doctors and everyone is just completely dumbfounded.

I do care, I want him to get better. But this is very hard.

Anyway, on a lighter note, one of the guys at work is going to help me learn how to play hockey this winter and I'm pretty psyched. My ex just never had the time for it, and dammit I want to learn!

And no, I don't need any cowbell.

Actually my soon to be ex has been hospitalized for some mysterious illness he has and here I sit with him. It's a bit of an odd situation. We're still good friends or obviously I wouldn't be here, but I do wish they would find out what in the hell is wrong with him.

So leave me messages guys! I'm bored and tired and I need a good laugh...

P.S. Kamui- how's the liebesfleisch? Haha
I'm terrible

I decided mine is MizzUrri

Why? Well if that one guy can be Flo-rida (get it? Florida??) then I can be MizzUrri (missouri? My homestate!)

Ok...the martini is working its magic.

Yes, I finally broke down and had a martini...WHOA!!!!! Hold me back! A whole martini? What's this world coming to?

The truth is, I have a 2 martini limit. A friend once put it this way..."martinis are like boobs. 1 is not enough and 3 is too many"


He is so right.

Oh my gosh I am so wiped from my new job!
On my feet all day, up and down the warehouse over and over...and I LIKE it!!
Finally I'm not sitting at a microscope all day or arguing with engineers dumber than my dog hehe.

You're probably wondering where the naked car repair comes in though. Well, yesterday I had the joy of working with a 62 year old man who goes by Rodge. While he and I and another guy around my age put away things he started telling us stories of his days on the farm as a young man...ah yes, the early 60s...back when you could work on your corvette naked as the day you were born.... ??
I must've looked dumbfounded when he told me such a thing because he defensively said, "WHAT?! Can't a man work on his car naked on his own property?"


I was so confused....

Yes Rodge. If working on your car naked is what you wish to do....by all means, shut the garage door.

I just felt like saying that. I have no witty title for today.

I'm just not in my usual chipper mode today...
Honestly, I don't know that I ever am. I just don't like to sound depressed all the time. Today there's just no way around it. I do little things throughout the day to take me away from my reality but I always have to come back to it...and it sucks to put it mildly. 5 years ago if you had told me this is where I'd be in life, I would've laughed. It just couldn't be; but it is.

I think the hardest part is finding a good way out. It's such a slow process. I don't have much help (if any) and every day is painful. I want so bad to be happy again- to have a home to return to where someone loves me and appreciates the things I do and someone I can love in return. I want my family to call me (why do I have to always call? I feel stupid.) I'd like to feel like I exist. Right now...

I don't really

hmmm, Lay off the Dir en grey Ren....

Oh Myvers, my darling...
I'm sorry you haven't been my avatar for so long. I vowed to use you and only you for that but-well, Gackt is so beautiful. But he will never be as beautiful as you my dear. I'm Sorry Can you ever forgive me?

hehehehehe

What a silly silly girl I am.

I desperately need some sleep. I think my brain is suffering. Can't you tell?

I've been off and on job searching for what seems like an eternity as most of you are quite aware. Yesterday I got a very desperate part time gig at best buy and I was supposed to go in for my drug test today. Easy enough right?

Well, around noon one of the temp. agencies calls me with a potential job offer and wanted to know if I could go in for an interview today or tomorrow. Knowing I was busy today, of course I said...TOMORROW!!! She says okydoky then calls back not even 10 minutes later saying she needs me to do it today AND I need to be there by 2pm.

Here's the chain of events.

I need to go do my stupid drug test at 1pm which is 20 minutes away...drive back another 20 minutes just to get to the road I need to be on to go to the interview which will take another 20 minutes to get to....all in all that leaves me....NO TIME TO TAKE A DRUG TEST!!!!!

I thought maybe if I really book it I can knock some time off and get it all done. Well, Hurricane Renny was in full force and it wasn't to be.

I realize halfway to my destination I've forgotten my drug test paperwork. Great. I drive back. There goes any extra time I had planned on having. I get to the clinic. Fill out paperwork...then sit. Realizing they aren't getting me in right away I walk out.

Now, I'm on my way to my interview. I arrive only to realize...I forgot my resume. WHAT IN THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME? Was it not enough caffiene? Not enough sleep? Nerves?

I don't know.

Next thing I know I'm hanging out with a nearly 50 year old man whose telling me his life story about the company he works for and trying to catch me on trick questions. Nice interview

The outcome:

I got the job.


Somehow my girly charm won the guy over lol


I WIN!