Review of how May went

Honestly, the days are beginning to blur. I don't feel like doing much... hehe except spamming forums. I know this is jut because I hate the feeling of rejection - the feeling where I've applied for about 50 jobs and yet only a few responses, most of them just rejection. I'm getting sick and tired of this job application process. I've applied for a few jobs each day - I know I can probably do more. But what's the point really? I haven't gotten much response.
Do I even want to be an Engineer? Probably not... What Do I really want to do with my life? I know spamming forums isn't what I want to do... The problem is: I don't know. Do I want to be some loser who spends their day and night online? talking to anonymous strangers...And all I ever enjoy doing lately is watching dramas... My life passes by me. I don't meet people, I'm too lazy to leave my house, too afraid to drive... even if I have my drivers. Before I know it I'd be old, reminiscing about how wasted my youth with dramas....
I regret not traveling...

Since I've been getting my 8 hours of sleep (compared to the 4 during school) I have been dreaming...

This morning's dream was freaky.

It was like a clip. In a music room where 5 people auditioning to the Juilliard School in NYC (the art one). They were dancing in sync, like the dancing you would see in "america's best dance crew". The 5 dancers consists of 2 members from TVXQ (Yunho and JJ) and 3 from KAT-TUN (Kame, Jin and Koki). I remember being excited to see them perform together...

Then fast forward, I see the results. Turns out Yunho, Jin and Kame made it. Yunho was very emotional and sincere... and grateful. Whereas Jin and Kame took it like it was expected. Koki didn't look disappointed. And somehow I didn't see JJ's reaction.

Then I woke up.

It's weird.. because Koki's probably one of the stronger dancers in KAT-TUN (actually Junno is but.. why wasn't he in my dream and where was xiah?)

lol this makes no sense whatsoever... but it probably represents of how I perceive their attitudes with their success in Japan. I probably feel that KAT-TUN is taking their success for granted... and have it "easier" than TVXQ... lol

crazy dream...

jpopasia
hm.. this is a unique site... lol it totally gives me a place to fangirl (and it encourages fangirling)

I don't quite like the lagging the preview causes (I can type a lot faster than the preview), but that's about it.

hehe this "jpop" point thing is definitely strange...

Ok now it's going to be my daily rantings

New wallpaper

yay.. i spent wayyyy too much time on this wallpaper, but I love it. I noticed my Yamapi shadow is off >_< oh well... hehe JJ doesn't even have a shadow