i havent been having a very good week lately. im all depressed and get angry very easily somehow.

in language arts, we had to write about wat we would change about ourselves personallilty wise. i put my trust issues and major anger issues. lately i been angry over the simplisilist things. or really big things.

my parents dont know i been really angry so thats a good thing and a bad thing

now i dont want people who are reading this to think i need to go to a hospital or get rehab, cause i dont. i just been having a very off 2 weeks. just tro get my stress out, i scream at the top of my lungs when im home alone. i also run on the treadmill at top speed. almost fell once. it was kinda funy.


well getting back to the topic, im sooooo lucky my teacher didnt ask me any questions about the paper. and the worst thing is that i put " MAJOR anger issues" AND UNDERLINED MAJOR. (woops caps on )

well thats ok cause i feel better now cause i listen and watched a coupled music videos which make me feel good.

off topic,
my friend purposely spilt soda on some random girl for just having the same time pants and shirt as she does.

off topic:
theres this song called "fer sure"
YOU PEEPLES GOTTA LISTEN TO IT!! but it does have bad language but its still catchy

yay christmas!!! i could care less

in all honesty, who cares. ok, so wat if people buys u stuff. thats great, but hopefully u get them something back.

so anyways i havent been on klately because my daddy found out i have a jpop account i could care less about that tooo!

im not the happiest person around holidays but it doesnt matter. im still gonna run aroung outside in shorts while barefoot.

i had other stuff to say but rite now im coughing my lungs out.

i actually coughed blood out just awhile ago. i geuss i coughed to hard or sumthing.

okies thats it for mnow cause i might end up choking soo byes byes

i havent been on lately but alot has happened over a couple of weeks
fell down my stairs
finished 3 twilight books
im about to go see twilight on fgriday wit my buudie
i just got sniffed by my friend
i got turned into a vampire by my friend (the same friend mentioned in the last 3 things)
she kissed my shoulder
we told a copuple of friends that we kissed and they freaked out
my foot is cold

and i really want cofee now
im losing my crush of ueda and im starting to love U-KNOW frrom DBSK

wwell im done byes byes
my friend says hola

almost everyone of my friends know that i draw anime., well, i showed my dad a picture that i drew and he was all like " good ur getting better" then i tell him that my soccer coach wants me to draw her a picture. then i tell him that she said that i have talent and that there are art courses in high school. then my dads all like

"hahaha ur not gonna take art in high school. ur gonna take all the hard classes. art doesnt pay the bills and give u a nice house to live in. how many artists do u know pay their bills only by doing art? its ok for a hobbie but thats it."
then apperently i have a really angry face and my dads like " why do u look like u wanna kill me?" and he says all of that while laughing. and the sucky thing is that he doesnt know i wanna become an artist. he wants me to become a docter or lawyer. i dont want those jobs when i grow up. i wanna draw art and let people see my creations. i told my art teacher wat my dad said and she says that if i wanna become an artist, then go ahead.

all my friends said that if i become an artist and cant pay bills, they would all help me out. how is it that my fro=iends believe in me more than my own dad??? thats just messed up. im really hurt by his words

next week soccer ends. and i really wanna give my coach sumething. today she saw sum of my drawings and said they were really good and that i have talent. so she told me at the end of the school year or whenever to draw her a picture of anything. i have so many ideas but i think that i need more so i can actually plan some more stuff.

1) take pictures of everyone on the team laying on the grass and posing. then draw everyone around the piece of paper as a border. then theres gonna be a soccer ball in the middle saying sum stuff that the 8th graders are gonna write.

2) draw a bunch of pictures of us practicing or just hanging out or having fun


3) individual pics of everyone


i really need advice cause i really wanna impress her. one time in the locker rooms, it was her birthday and we had a game on that day. she came in and we all started singing happy birthday to her. she told us she was about to cry. it looked like she was gonna cry. so i really want her to remeber us.

so if u have advice, TELL ME!!!! its my last year in this school and i wanna make a lasting epression that us soccer girls are awesome even though we only won 1 game. but we have 2 more games next week then soccer is over
but all the soccer girls joined basketball and our soccer coach is the basketball coach so she still has to deal with us!!!!

in the last journal enrty, i wrote that i lost my soccer socks thaT i needed for todays game. well i found them. they were under my pillow. maybe the sock fairy left them for me

we lost our soccer game, again. out of 5 games, we only won 1. oh well

i finally understand algebra, a little

if this dude keeps tickling me at school im gonna beat him down

i want ice cream
ice cream is super duper good on cold days

i should be sleeping now but im not
i wanna drink coffee

i pretty much just wasted ur time. sorry, but im just sooooo bored

this icon is sooo adorably
its sneezing!!!! lol

i havent wrote anything for a while and alot has happened so im gonna write stuff rite now

- kicked a soccer ball into the dumpster at school
- had to go into the dumpster to get the ball back
- ran into a fence
- lost my glasses
- found my glasses in a friends purse
- almost skipped class but the buses were called
- lost my soccer socks that i need for tuesday
- fell on my butt while playing jumprope
- had a ball thrown at my face
- got a major nose bleed from the ball
- climbed on a desk and fell
- got pushed on a desk and fell backwards
- sang " baby come back" in the hallways
- found out that theres a song called " f*** me in the back seat"
- fell down the stairs in school while going to the balcony


that is pretty much wat happened all week long. other stuff happened to but i cant remember. probably when the soccer ball hit my face i lost my memory.
bye bye

TODAYS MY B-DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


well nothing really happened exespt that i had to clean my room and do all my laundry ( who knew i had so much clothes )


OMG THE PREVIW THING IS WORKING!!!
just noticed

yea anyway todays my b-day and i didnt even hav a cake yet. unless u count the cake rennanon gave me ( virtually )lol

i might get headphones for my cellphone.

yea thats it

GRRRRR!!!!!!!
i cant upload a video on youtube!!!! and i have to upload it by saturday morning. its for ueda's birthday ( my future husband )
me and him have the same birthday, october 4
arent we perfect for eachother!!!
anyway, im turning 14, oh yea!!!!!

....... who doesnt love ueda?!?!
my friend doesnt like him because of his hair. HIS HAIR!!!
wats sooo wrong about his hair. his hair looks sooooo sexy on him. she keeps saying that she hates him because he's taking me away from her. ITS JUST A LITTLE FAN CRUSH!!! (maybe not)
she likes the older jonas brother and she dont hear me complaining. like seriously. get a grip!!! just because i love him doesnt mean im actually gonna meet him. unless....

i get my manga artist career going when im 18, move to japan for a sighning, go on kat-tun cartoon as a guest, me and ueda start hanging out and dating, then we marry and have 2 kids. one girl and one boy

but, in reality, i REALLY dont think thats gonna happen ( though i do wish )

but anyway my b-day is this saturday!!!!
i hope u guys just say happy birthday cause my parents just give me hugs and thats it and i really just want sum1 to say "happy birthday jelly"

well thats it from me and my random babbling.

these girls in my school hate my one friend penny for no exact reason!!!!
like ( im using fake names) susie hates penny just because she used to go out with a dude she liked. GET OVER IT!!!!!!!! and now susie is making rumors about penny. SUSIE IS A SLUT!!! SHE HAD TO REPEAT 8TH GRADE AND SHES YOUNGER THAN ME!!!! susie is making crap that penny is a lesbian and sh*t. penny is bi! last year, we had lesbian mondays. me and penny would always walk around holding hands screaming gay pride. now everyone is caliing her a lesbian but shes not!! yea she may scream in the hallways and say outloud " im gonna rape u !"
and push u to a locker and pretend to hump u but shes not a les. even the 7th graders are asking her in her face if shes one! i swear im about to curse them out but then i would get in trouble.

in gym today, she was all sad and stuff because susie was talking crap about her. so penny wrapped her arm around mine and laid her head on my shoulder. then this 7th grader comes up to us and asks "r u to lesbians?"
me and penny said at the same time " no we're not. get away before we chase u and pants u!!!!"
that kid ran. then everyone started laughing. then school was over and i stayed after school for a soccer game. we lost. but oh well

i hope penny is feeling better

i did not use real friend names

holla bonjuir ni-how ( i cant spell for my life)

just random things i did today


-picking up my friend bridal-style ( im not a les, she just jumped at me so)
-giving a piggyback ride to a friend( not a les. shes shorter than me and adorably no homo)
-got hit in the face with a soccerball (my nose started bleeding)
-tripped over my cat
-screamed loudly in the hallways
-ran into a door
-ran into a locker
-tripped over my own feet
-spilled soda on my friend
-water spitted at me ( my friend got me back even though it was an accident)
-had to put gum on my nose because the teacher caught me
-sneezed so hard that my head hit the desk
-pulled down my friends pants (she dared me to)


and rite now i have to do the dishes or i'll get in trouble
i just notised that i have a soccer game 2morrow and i have homewoork to do
.................. oh well, i'll do it in alittle bit

well today was our 1st soccer game and we won!!! the other team were not messing around. they must have really wanted to win. they tripped us, pushed us, and tried elbowing us! and when everyone was shaking hands at the end of the game, they SPIT on their hands and touched ours!!!! YUCK!!!!
well thats it really i got nothing else to say. i probably do but i just dont remember.

OH YEA!!! sumthing random

my birthday is in 12 days EXACT!!!!!!!!!!
IM GONNA BE 14!!!!!!!!


that emotican jjust looks sooo cute!!!!!!!!!

on thursday when i got home from soccer afterschool, my throat started hurying really badly, so i just whent to sleep early since i was really tired. well the next day i had a headache, sore throat, tummy ache, dizzy, and freezing cold. went to school cause i was forced to and couldnt pay attention at all. in language arts class, i was feeling super cold so i borrowed a friends hoodie. apperently i was shivering so badly my other friend gave me her hoodie aswell so i had 3 hoodies. well i guess 3 hoodies werent good enough because i was still shivering like crazy. my friends were telling me to go to the nurse but the period was almost over so i told them i would go next period. they almost ratted me out to the teacher.
i finally went to the nurse and she said my temp was nprmal and she couldnt do anything about it. so i went back to class coughing my lungs out. well, since im stuborn at times i decided to stay after school for soccer even though i felt like crap. surprisingly i felt better running around. then when i got home i felt like crap again.

so now on saturday i feel even worse but now i only have a sore throat and tummy ache. i better feel better on monday cause i have a game then.

well it really doesnt matter because im probably gonna be so stuborn and play anyway. im surprised i made it to the computer from my room. oh great i feel dizzy

yesterday night my mom came back. but i was already asleep when she came because....
i came home late from soccer
my dad told me right away to clean the house when i walked through the door
cleaned the house and my room
did the laundry
took a shower
FINALLY did my homework which i needed help in
text my friend saying good night
went to sleep at 11:39p.m.

then at 12 midnight i hear my mom trying to wake me up. i mumbled to her and she told me she brought chiken home....

WHO WAKES UP A SLEEPNG CHILD JUST TO SAY " i brought u chiken"
yea she wanted to talk to me but i was sleeping. couldnt she tell me early in the morning

rite when i came home from school my dad said that WE had to pick up my brother from college. then i find out that he wants to find my mom so that me and my bro can apologize to her and bring her back. he starts saying that im pretty much the only person who can do that.
so me and my bro find my mom in the van at her jobs parking lot. my bro is trying to talk to her but she was being stuborn saying it was all his fault that shes living in a car. i ask her why cant she come back and she starts badmouthing him. so my brother tries to hand her her cellphone but she throws it bk at us saying she doesnt need it.
when me and my bro were about to leave i went to her and said i got a 100 on a test. she doesnt even look at me. she just goes and drives off like i wasnt even standing there.
then when me and my bro go bk to my dad he starts badmouthing both of us. and then he tells me that i probably didnt even say more than 10 words!
and apperntly if we dont get my mom bk home my dad is going to lose his job and we're going to lose the house.
well isnt that just f******** great!! ( sry 4 the language )
im so pissed off rite now. and i dont need this in the 2nd week of school

ok well my parents got in a fight with my brother and my mom kicked him out. she called all his friends telling them she kicked him out and he needs a place. after my brother left the house my mom started crying in the backyard and she came back in and my dad wanted to talk. she got stuborn and decided to leave aswell. so she got her stuff, ot all of it, and was still arguing wit my dad. my mom called me and asked me if i wanted to come. i told her i have school and she got an atitude with me. after she left, i found out she left her cell phone and house key. then my dad got a hold of my brother and went to talk to him.


now my brother is home and its me,dad, and bro
my mom is not with us but she might come back.

i dont care wat happens but all i know is that she and anyone else is not ruining my future!!!!

well that was my weekend. and school 2day went pretty well.

i did so many stupid things 2day. heres a couple of them
-made cat meows in 7th grader ears ( im 8th )
-put a dime in my slushie and tried to get a teacher to notice
-held hands with my friend while screaming gay pride ( im not a les)
-putting tape in my hair saying i got highlights ( i have long hair)
-insulting myself in front of the guy i think is cute
-doing a push-up during math class
-walkingn through the hallways singing "i kissed a girl"
-said to my guy friend "hey sexy" ( friend told me 2)
-pushed my friend out of the bus seat
-tell a guy he has girl hips
-walking in the rain with a white shirt ( my bus dropped me off and i was walking home)(i was also wearing a black bra, not a good idea)


my day was hectic. and somehow i got lost in my way to lunch

2morrow is my friends birthday. the one i been fighting with for over 3 months. rite now im txting her and crap so yea i think we're friends.i hope so. wow thats really it. theres nothing else to talk about

OH my class might get a rule

guess what the rule is


RANDOM DANCING!!!!!!!!!
oh yea

ok i forgot to get on yesterday and write about my first day but nothing really happened except getting lost and screaming in the hallways when i saw my friends and getting yelled at.

but apparently im in algebra somehow . i mean i good at math but i didnt think that good.
and if the police officer in my school sees anyone with a cell phone, that includes in ur pocket, ur gonna get arrested

and my WHOLE schedule is gonna get change

and the dude i liked last year is in my algebra class and lunch
he's a dueche bag though

and i saw the cutest dude in my language arts class

ok but any way my 1st and 2nd day of school went pretty well

except that, once again im the ONLY girl in my art and music class


kk thats it

ok so lately i been acting emo bcause i have alot of things on my mind, but not today!!!!!!!!!!
im all cheery and happy
ok not super happy but happy enough.

u people should go on youtube and put in "My Only Love [Anime Boston 2008 Best Romance Video Nominee]"
i thought this vid was soo adrable since i like anime and crap.
this video is made by MeliChan923 from youtube

if u have a yutube account, i suggest u leave a comment on this vid casue its totally awesome
its totally awesome for chobits