I think i just lost 4 of my closest friends...

I thought that everything would work out after the family day and it did but this morning it was good and lunch was fun with them and me talking and laughing...
but after that i got my PSP and game shared with a classmate and i noticed the 4 of them talking after a few minutes they called me to sit with them and at first the 3 ran outside the room and then Nicole(one of my friends) followed them... i was left alone...

After about 5min. they called me again.... I was staring at them and i knew in my mind that it was the end of this very close friendship we had... and i was right... damn it..

Nicole spoke and said some stuff which i don't wanna say....
it was like: "You embarrassed Nikki in front of many people during the family day. You shouted at her and then many people started looking at her and she got embarrassed" I didn't know of that and if i did really do that they would know that i was only joking.. If they knew me, they would know that i wasn't mad at them
She continued with "i'm not mad at you, it's just for the sake of the friendship we have, the five of us i mean... I don't want this to happen again"
And with that i knew that they wanted me out... and i understood that...

I dragged a friend to the CR and cried and when i returned i saw them and they were laughing like nothing happened... during the afternoon, they wouldn't even talk to me or look at me... I felt really hurt and sad that after all i've done for them, they do this to me.... and i really offered them a lot...

Nikki, sent me bad comments on my FS... saying bad things about me...
well, i understand her... but it caused me pain for 3days and she didn't know what i went through... she acts like she understands me but i know that only a few people understand me in life... and she's not one of them....

yesterday.... 09/05/08
was the acquaintance party in ADFC(Asian development fouindation college)
and of course edmund was there... that's why i was abset in my morning classes...lol

so, it goes like this....
it was all planned out... i woke up late so that i wouldn't get on my school jeep and i reasoned out that we had no classes or something like that and then at about 9:00. I told my mom that i would go to ADFC cause Rica(edmund's sister) wanted me to go...
and she said "whatever" and i smiled... i woke up 'Omeng' Edmund's friend who slept at our house that night and went with him in going to Edmund's school....

Upon arriving, we stayed at Rica's store inside the school.. (they sell halo-halo) and then i saw him... of course i hid from him and then he was learning ow to ride on a bike or more like learning how to fall from a bike! and then i sat on one of the benches beside Omeng and then he smiled at me...lol... and i was like staring at him and smiling....

after about a few minutes i sat inside the store... Omeng was sitting by the window near me.. he signaled edmund to go to the window and then he did.. and they talked and i was just grinnning at them as i listened to what they were talking about and i was thinking 'prepare yourseld, i'm gonna kill you later!!'

then he left and went to the front side of the store... In front of me and i was like staring at the side not noticing him and then he was staring at me and he kept on smiling that super cute smile he always did....

then he left us going to his room and then Omeng was like talking to a lot of people asking for food... lol.... it was for lunch!!
and the we had so muh food and they made me a banana split!! (how nice of them)

then Rica called Jessa(one of the people runnning the store) and she said to her to let Omeng call edmund and tell him to stay in the store and talk to me cause i might be bored and then when he called edmund... his classmates didn't let him go! and then i noticed him go down and i think he played cards or something with some girls and then just in a snap a girl enters the store wearing a yellow shirt and then she runs at the back part of the basketball court and then *whoop* a group of girls(about 30 gurls) were walking toward her and in the middle of the girls i saw Edmund.. i was so pissed... my heart was like *i'm dying!* and then it hurt! Omeng told me that the girl 'Olipia' was her name... and then Edmund lost a card game and then he had to kiss her!! (damn it) and then i was mad... but i just sat down and covered my face with my handkerchief...i was about to cry . then he came to the store and i was facing the window cause i didn't want to see him right at that time. and then they talked for a while and Omeng said that "Rica said that you should stay here and look after Patricia casue she's lonely' (what!!!) and then he sat beside me and he said 'hi' and i was like glancing at him and Omeng was guilty cause he brought the PSP without permission from my brother and then i took the fault... and then he was telling it to Edmund and as he stood up and stood near Omeng, leaning on the glass... and staring at me... ... and then he scolded me "I remember that you have class today!" and he was smirking and i grinnned at him.. "absent" i said in a low voice.


then he had to go... cause he had a flight to Manila then he would go to Baguio..
so he got his 'whatever he was waiting for' and then he said goodbye to Omeng and then when he passed by the window Jessa said goodbye and he said bye back ( i was afcing ther window) and then he walked away... *sigh* I thought "He didn't even say goodbye to me!! i'm such a coward!" and then when i looked back at the open window he was there looking at me and smiled that smile i loved and the waved his han at em and said 'goodbye'.... *sigh* it was a sigh of relief and sadness....

I LIKE LOVE YOU, EDMUND EDWARD I. CHUA!!
at least i got a picture of you but you still owe me a pic of you and me together

Me and my friends were having practices at school...
~the STEFTI student council
~acquaintance party

Me, Danica and Airra were supposed to go to my brother's girlfriend's house for a birthday party but something came up and instead of them i went with Nikki, riane and Trisha...

We were in the multicab going to downtown... we got down near DWU... walked to the next block and went to the school ADFC... arriving there Rica (the gf of my bro) came to get us (their house was at the back of the school... they owned the school). then we went inside grabbed some plates and got food...

We were about to sit on the white chairs, we had already put our plates on the table (it was nature-ish... there was a garden beside it and you could see the sun clearly shining)

I was about to sit when suddenly i met him... the guy i've been wanting to see since .... since i learned to love.... He got out of the house... with his white skin shining and his gorgeous eyes looking at me.. i though i was gonna die....

I greeted him a happy birthday 'Otanjoubi Omedetto'... then he said thank you... He was so cute i couldn't resist to not stare at him... My friends were like 0_O... so hot!! he looks a little like rain though... which makes him hotter!!

Then he went inside the house.... suddenly the sun shown brightly.. like hot!! as if attracted to his beauty...

I Realized then that i was in love!! super in love... madly in love with EDMUND EDWARD CHUA!! the hottest guy in my life!!

Our class has a 'chamber theater' to be presented on Monday... there were 6 groups.
Our teacher told us about it on Thursday and gave the story on Friday...
She said that we couldn't practice during weekends.... so that left us with no choice... we did practice this aftie, Saturday at my friend, gellimy's house...

When i arrived Nicole, Aljin, Agatha, Danica, Margaret and Riane were there...
we watched TV, sang a few songs, danced, shouted.... gellie arrived and then we had to pick up our friend who was by the church waiting for us... (the church was near the house) and so we walked there... me and 5 of our friends walked to Nicole's house. Gelly and Danica went back to her house... it was a few blocks away (by a few i mean far!) we stopped at a near store and bought 'sparkle' and 'cream o' we arrived at her house, we chatted, piano, laugh laugh, drink water.... we returned to gelly's house by pedicab.... me and riane on 1, aljin and paul on 1 and Nicole, agatha and margaret on 1.... we had a race.... the last one to arrive at the house would pay the pedicabs.... and Nicole's team lost!! (but i still paid for the 2 pedicabs)

WE arrived, Danica and ghelz were sleeping... they woke up, we talked, laughed, shouted as we stared at the TV a.k.a. WU CHUN and CALVIN CHEN who were here in the Philippines.... (we were 2 groups in one house) and then another group who were practicing just on the same block just at a different house came to gelly's house and chatted with us!! we had fun but then our teacher called... we had to lie a bit though..... KR talked with her and said that she was at a store cause the phone in her house was being used (lie) and that she was alone....

Our teacher said that one of my classmates' dad called and asked if she knew where he was cause he jsut said that they were gonna have a practice.....
Ma'am asked KR who her group mates

were and she said that she had to call Queenie and ask her... by the time she put down the phone we were all panicking (well, except for Paul) btw, queenie was at the house too.... then she called back ma'am and ma'am asked there phone numbers and stuff like that.... she put down the phone and then everyone was in a hurry to call there house and say that if our teacher calls tell her that i'm somewhere with someone.... like that

We were about to go when Nicole and KR passed through the sliding door and Shawn was just a t the tip of the door when suddenly the big, brown jar had fallen and cracked to pieces...

Her mom came out of the room and scolded the people near the door... saying that if no one admits the fault we would all pay for it...

we had a discussion outside and everyone was panicking.... like talking at once... noisy, noisy, noisy!! then Danica, me and gelly went to her mom's room... (nica needed some alcohol... ahha) we saw tat her mom was laughing.... she was laughing cause of our stress outside.. i looked at my back and up and i saw a window hole that was covered with posters and then i heard the voices of mah friends outside...
we were like ... and we talked for a bit and then we had to leave... we decided to just leave it there!! (jowking!!)

WE went to a restaurant named ' Porbida' and ate some burgers... like that.... and then i thought 'WE DIDN'T EVEN GET TO PRACTICE ANYTHING!!!' and 'WE'RE ALL DEAD ON MONDAY MORNING'

We spent the rest of our time talking bad about our teacher... (we're so mean)

ADDICTED TO: THE TWILIGHT SERIES OF STEPHENIE MEYERrnrnThe start of my addiction was when i heard from a very close friend... She and my other friend were talking about it and i happened to have read it... (i wasn't snooping!!)rnrnI asked her about it and i was like ' I WANT TO READ IT!!'rnI let my mom buy 'Twilight' (the first of the series) and 'NEW MOON' the sequel of twilight...rnrnWhen i finally read it, it took me 1 day to read each of them... with my excitement about it.. why wouldn't I have finished that fast!! I was super happy even when i haven't even opened the book yet...rnrnNow i'm looking for 'ECLIPSE' i wanna buy it already!! I haven't looked yet but i'm hoping to see one... hopefully i might!!rnrnThe description of 'EDWARD CULLEN' was HOT! and the love story between him and 'BELLA SWAN' is soooooooooo Romantic!! I have read it already twice....rnrnBreaking dawn, the last of the series is gonna be released on August 2 and maybe it would August 4 here, to wait for the shipping of the book.... I can't wait for it!! I'm super excited!!rnrnrnAnd to my joy, they're gonna release the 'twilight movie' on December 12, 2008... i'm super excited about that one too.. I'm happy i read the book before the movie will be shown.... might have been too late... *sigh of relief*rnrnNow i'm totally addicted to 'The Twilight Series of Stephenie Meyer'rni love Stephenie Meyer for publishing this great book!!

I had this dream.... super weird!

Before sleeping, i read his thingy from a friend in Multiply...
they're gonna show Tanei Gakuen Q on a tv show in the Phil.
i was super happy.... then knowing me, i thought that it would make the people here like yama-chan... so like more and more people would like him...

I slept soundly... and i had a dream... I thought that if yama-chan was super famous here.. he would come to the Phil...

DREAM:

and then i heard from the news that he would be coming to th Phil. and when he came i met him... eye to eye!! we talked for a while (i don't know how that happened though) and then he was telling me stuff like personal... and then he suddenly said 'don't forget me.. don't let go of me..' it was like he was telling me to still love him and not to replace him in my heart....

i woke up!

I was like 'Why??' and i was having second thoughts if i should still love him or should i replace him....

I CAN'T DECIDE!!

I've been so busy these days....
watching anime...
live action...
reading manga...
movies...
jdrama...
music...

It's just so fun!! i love my life!! eversince I joined jpop... i got lotsa friends!! which i am happy about.... *smiles*

animes/manga i'm currently watching:

Ouran High school Host club
Vampire knight
Shugo chara!
bokura ga ita
Kyou kara maou 2

music:

jpop as always...
HSJ
YUI
Utada Hikaru
L'Arc~en~Ciel
Gazette
NEWS
KAT-TUN

Jdrama:

Sensei wa Erai
Absolute boyfriend

I'm so tired.... but i still wanna watch and finish them.... ^_^
i'm always sleeping at like 2 or 3 in the morning....
well, i'm happy about it...
and besides, school is gonna start soon and i'll not be doing a lot of jpoping, anime watching, etc... maybe if i just have time.... *boring*
I'm gonna miss every second of spending time with the laptop... hahahah
I'm gonna be fighting with my teachers again and not listening to the lesson!!
Listening to J-songs on my ipod while the teacher is talking... hahah *i do that sometimes* hahahah they don't mind!!

Finally!! I'm watching Ouran HIgh school Host Club.... I wanted to watch that since forever!! finally, I found a site that has it....rnI'm currently watching: 'Absolute Boyfriend'. Super cute!! I like the romance and comedy side of it.... Now, i'm super addict mode on my laptop! 24/7... well not really... but most of the time!! still listening to J-pop when on a break from watching.... Addicted to Utada Hikaru and HSJ and Arashi!!! Anime...Anime...Anime.... that's what people watch usually these days.... Anime is like super cool!! i'm like watching 4 or 5 animes in CR and 3 or 4 live actions in Mysoju while still having time to open my multiply, friendster and go to Jpopasia of course..... It feels good to listen to J-pop every now and then.... kawaii!!

I went to this place over the weekend...
we went to a place called 'Pintuyan', we were supposed to go whale watching but the waves wer like mad.... then we went to 'Padre Burgos' and we went snorkling. Lotsa big and small fishes of different colors.... it was a great sight to see... The next day we had a family reunion in 'maasin'. It was fun... lotsa food... singing... dancing...laughing... pictures...coffee break... inuman.... hahahha great weekend!! loved it!!

I fund out about Ryosuke Yamada in a fan site on friendster....
i watched him before on Music Station but i forgot about that
I wasn't really a big fan of J-pop till a few months ago that is....
i totally fell in love with him.... his music, his voice, his cute face...everything
haha... sad to say, i haven't met him yet... i wish i was from Japan and a close friend of his....
Even if i'm just a friend.... i would love that so much... to stay by his side from time to time and take care of him... *sigh*