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Psychoanalyze yourself.

Answer the following questions with the first thought that comes to mind. Then read what each answer means. (No cheating! )

1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. Who is with you?
I wish I knew.

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal?
A bear.

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
I run, he chases.

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing, and before you is a house. How big is it?
A tiny run down shack.

5. Is your house surrounded by a fence?
A broken and collapsing picket fence.

6. You enter the house. You walk into the dining room. What does it look like?
Deserted and barren.

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
Broken coffee mug.

8. What do you do with the cup?
Throw it.

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at a body of water. How big is the body of water?
Fairly large.

10. How will you cross the water?
I won’t.

NOW COPY AND PASTE IT BEFORE READING THE ANALYSIS.

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Analysis:

1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important
person in your life
TRUE: Because I don’t know who the most important person in my life is.
Had it not said I am NOT alone that is what I would of put.
Maybe because I think I am the only person that I can trust.

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of
problems in your life
TRUE: I perceive my problems well, I handle them not so well.

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems
TRUE: I try to escape my problems even though I know I can not.

4. The size of the house is representative of the size of your ambition to solve your problems.
TRUE: I do not see the point in solving my problems because it will not fix anything for me.

5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You’d prefer that people not drop by unannounced.
TRUE: I am in the middle for this one.

6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy.
TRUE.

7. The durability of the material with the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationships.
TRUE.

8. What you did with the cup is representative of your attitude.
TRUE.

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire.
VERY TRUE Haha.

10. The way you cross the water is representative to how easy or hard you expect your life to be
Sadly this is also TRUE.

forgiveness (noun)

1. compassionate feelings that support a willingness to forgive

2. the act of excusing a mistake or offense



Even the dictionary says that you have to be willing to forgive someone. Sounds easy enough right? Well, its not.

How can you forgive someone that completely screwed your life up? How can you be willing to let that go? How do you let go of that regret that you live with every waking moment? Does anyone know?

Everyone just says ’forgive and forget’. Do they actually know what they’re saying? You can’t just forgive someone and forget about how they hurt you or betrayed you. It takes time, and honestly, I dont think I’m ready to say forgive. Selfish? Maybe a little bit. Part of me wants me to get this out of the way, forget about it all. And the anger that keeps building in me is like a ticking bomb, sooner or later its bound to explode. I know its for the best if I just say ’you’re forgiven’, but theres so much more to it. I dont know if I’ll actually mean it. I’m better off in life now, but part of me still lingers in the past, hanging on every mistake you made. As of right now, I dont know if I will ever be able to forgive you. The things you did, and said, and how you treated me. I had thought you were better than that. Maybe I’m more than angry. Maybe I’m disappointed too. As much as I need to forgive you, I’m not willing to, nor am I ready.

Well today there was gonna be another party at my house, but I called up almost everyone and said I "cancelled", lies.

It was only me, Efren, his gay cousin, his friend, and two of my friends. We ate, we went to Mexicali to throw some megatones(fireworks), and in the process, we made every car alarm go off in two streets with its massive boom! three times

Yeah then the cops would swing by everytime with there lights and sirens on, so we would go in the house and hide and see them pass by asking questions if they knew who threw it. Gosh, it was fun, and when we were done on the way back crossing the border, I realized i forgot my birth certificate since, I haven't gotten my passport :/

They thought I was a wetback or somethng :/ but I'm not.
So we came back to my house and chilled, thne we left for Jose's house, then to Quickstuff and bought some monsters. We laughed all the way back and made fun of people and ourselves.

Then we came up with areally stupid 'rhyme' that goes "Your nipples are the size of nickles, where I can stick my pickle"

. . . . . .Don't ask

So then we sat infront of Jose's house for a while just laughing, then we went inside, and made up more stuff. It's like everytime we get together we can never stop laughing. Then we went to one of the rooms, and we played pool while Jose was on the phone, and well Efren totally beat me. >.>

So we played and played, then my phone rings. . and its my best friend(Cuco), so that was awkward. && he went "where are? what are you doing? whos there?...etc."
I think i almost snapped, I need to have a talk with him.

Then I promised I would be home early so me and Efren went home, laughing of course

Well thats it for today.

So last night there was a party at my house, for a friend Ana who just turned sixteen. She made a banner and passed it around to a few friends, and well the word spread. So i had to clean everything and set up.

A friend got here early and well we went to the store to buy some ice and drinks, and of course her cake. While we were at the store a person got here so we were all like . Then at around 8 people started getting here and Ana called all lost she didn't know how to get here. Then she told me she was at Lincoln which the the street right before mine so i just laughed at her. Then EJ called, and it was going ohk, then all of a sudden it was "Bitch give methat cig bitch no don't do that!" and along with like 5 other voices yelling at each other. So then me Danny, and Gustavo decided to walk to the corner of the street and there comes this huge gang of cholos...ahhh yeah right it was a huge gang of my friends around fifteen of them. So we all came in and just chilled for a while, and then went out to the porch and talked some more. Then we got the music going and a few more people got here. Then trips got here and it was like ehhh...i guess.
&& then people started smoking and they rounded up there money and went to go buy beer and vodka. Then more people got there anda few of them were doing shrooms, so it was like wtf?

Also a few of us were inside playing guitar hero, and when i was walking in, i found cuco raiding the fridge so i was like and he was like =0 food.
SO me and him ordered the Pizza Mia deal thing from Pizza Hut and shared it...but of course it was only us and the people inside the house, not the ones outside. =] all meanie. Then Gustavo started drinking a bit so i was like ...i guess :[

Then we were all talking and laughing and having a great time, until Danny through a tantrum over Alice so we were all like wtf, get over it. So He was whining wouldn't give in and John payed a taxi for him to go home already it was around midnight. Then a while later this guy came up and was all like awww, your an awsome chick, a bit weird thoguh, but...i already love you *hugs*. I don't even know is name...but i found him quiete attractive, yet i'm pretty sure it was the hieght.

Then gustavo left and a while later hetexted me and was like ima go back, and iwas like crazzy much? go to sleep. Then he was all like ohk, and at around 3 he was at one of the schools so we were all like wtf. Then we all started cleaning and EJ was tripping and was all drunk so a few people left and then everyone left except for five people. And well We were playing with my dogs (Buster&Goliath). Then three left and it was only me, Cuco, and Ana, so we cleaned up a bit. Then i took them home and came home. So i had to clean, and sweep and mop the floor.

I finished at around 4 in the morning..and went to sleep around a quarter before five..then i woke up a bit after 6 in the am.

What a drag..and today they invited me to a party...but hell no, ima stay home.

~I

Hmmm ohk... so last night was awsomely halarious to the point of wow.
ok that doesn't make sense does it?


So yesterday evening I got home from school and bathed the dog, then i showered. Then I called my friend to figure out what was going down today so i called and asked. He said he and Ana where at Nats house outside wating for Nat and they had been for around half an hour. THen you could here my other friend in the background yelling "Dispara una hamburgesa!!" so i was like lmao and cuco was like yeah...ana wants a hamburger. So i was on my way with my mom and we stopped at Jack in the Box and bought three burgers, a large s oda, and a salad, and then she all got in the ladys face : its scary watching my mom in that habitat, i'm not use to it. So she finally got to my friends hosue and Cuco and Ana were all sitting outside infront of her door on the floor (a funny sight).
So i got off and my mom left and we were just eating, then we all started arguing over ketchup and this video we made.

Yeah, we sat there for quiet a while, around 2 hours!! and Nat was getting a hair cut and at the mall so we were all like when are you getting here?!?! Cause of course, we wanted to get into her pool and it was already about 8 pm.

So we got bored of sitting there and we went to park that was like a block away and we were there making fun of people and my friend did my make-up which came out really awsome . Then we saw nat;s van pass by so we got our stuff and ran toward her house! in the middle of the street of course cuz we know not any other way. It was already going to be 10 at night se we felt all neglected cause she just left us there for like 4 hours.
And then we all had this awsome conversation over ppl and finally...got in the pool
yet it was cold but we're so wreckles. We were in there til like 11:30, then ana left. So it was me, Nat, and Cuco.
We talked then we went upstairs, and logged on to myspace for about an hour and just chilled.

Then we went to Nat's moms room and just chilled soem more on her bed. Then Nat got this awsome idea of sending our other friend, Gustavo a perverted text, so she did, from my cell phone. Then he replied and went with the flow so it was all funny, cause he really thought it was me. Then we kept on going all perves and then Cuco texted him from his own phone and he all denied it from him and said all these things. Then he all admitted that it did turn him on so we were all like omg | X10 And he was like wow i didnt know Irene(me) had such a wild side, so we were all cracking up

So yeah, to not make him feel bad we just pretended it was me and no one else.

Then we were all ugh half asleep and we noticed it was 2 in the morning. :/ !
So i called my sister and she all picked us up like 10 minutes before 3 and she gave cuco a ride...we ended up going to the donut shop, yumm!!
And my sister was telling him embarassing stories of me
Finally we dropped him off at his house at like 4 in the morning, and he forgot his clothes so i had to wash them. When it was about to be five i finally went to sleep -_- you have no idea how tired i was. mmhhmm then i woke up all early thats so not cool.

Then, do to the way we were laying down on the bed, today when i woke up, my neck was all sore, and ribs, back, and shoulders too. All cause they were tickling me, and using me as a pillow, i felt suffocated. So right know, it hurts me even to turn my head to the side =( or lift my arms.



And thats how my evening went, oh yeah then i got in trouble for getting home at 4 in the am

Hmm, Yeah i just realized. Instead of doing my hw, I always log onto jpopasia, and watch some [alice nine] videos and all this stuff and I just leave my hw there spread out infront of my face. Then I stare at it start doing, maybe like a sentence or two then completely forget about it and leave it there and watch some more videos. geeez. I've got the attention span of a seven year old i guess.