So Yesterday I Saw Dir En Grey in Concert!!! YAY!!

So It Was AMAZING!!! The Opening Act Was Ok....

The Vocalist Would Not Stop Stage Diving!

He Staged Dived Twice Into Me.

The First Time He Landed On My Head. Then The Second Time His Ass Landed On My Nose!

I Thought He Broke My Nose At First But My Nose Is Just Swollen So I'm Ok...

So The Moment I Was Waiting For Came Dir En Grey Took The Stage!!!!!

So The Staff Did A Sound Check And Stuff And Set Up The Stage.

I Was In The 2nd Row So I Could See The Where Kyo Would Be Perfectly.

So Die Looked SOOOO HOT!!!!!!

And Kyo Comes Out Decked Out In...A Addidas Track Suit...

But The Performance Was Amazing!!! OMG Kyo Is Amazing On Stage

But What Cracked Me Up Is That On Stage, Since I Was So Close, I Noticed That Kyo Had...The Most Noticable Hard On XD

I Was Like WHOA!! I Could Not Stop Staring

I Was SOOO Happy They Opened With Obscured And Played Grief. Those Are My 2 Favorite Songs By Them.

I Got SOO Many Bruises! People Were Pushing And Shoving And I Could'nt Breathe!!!

I Almost Passed Out!!

My Friend Caught Die's Water Bottle!!!

She Gave Me The Label And Poured Some Of His Water In My Water Bottle.

And I Switched The Caps

OMG I Wanted To Buy Stuff But I Had NO Money!!!

I Had A Great Time Though I Want To See Them Again!!!<333

"Over the ЯAINBOWS"

It's the same garbage every day from my parents.

Enough already!! I understand your stressed from work and my sister, but why do I recive the blows from it?

My father just came home and yelled at me for no apparent reason...

I've had enough of them!! Everyday all I hear in the house is noise, yelling, and screaming!!

It makes me want to drive my head through a wall!!!

I don't want to have to take the measures I took when I was younger to deal with pain...It won't help...I don't want to go back to that!

I don't want to feel this way anymore but what am I gonna do...??

All I can do is deal with it and hopefully wish with all my heary that things will get better.

God I pray that in the future all this pain I go through will make me stronger and will pay off.

I want to get as far awy from these people as I can!

College is just around the corner and hopefully I can get away from them!

I'm looking into colleges with a good Japanese program cuz I seriously thinking about moving there when I get older.

I sometimes wonder what I did to deserve this???

Seriously God why??? I'm so fu*&ed in the head because of them...

I can't even have a proper relationship with friends!

I don't know how to tell my friends I don't want to hang out with them cuz i just want to be alone!!

Be alone in silence without yelling and loud voices.

I sometimes wonder if ending it all would make it better..??

Then I remember that there is so much I want to see and do that I have to keep living...

I finally realized that I'm alone...I have no one in this world to talk to but myself...

I'm drowning in despair and I can't seem to find myself happy...

I'm so pitaful...you guys must be laughing...

I just wish that I could have 1 persong who understood and would'nt stab me in the back...

But please my wishes never come true seeing as I'm still in this situation...

Sorry you had to hear my crap...I just needed to get it out....

I could breath a bit easier now...

But in a few minutes when my father gets back home...

It will be the same sh*$ all over again...

I Discovered Big Bang Today!!!

Yes I Know It Took me A While!!!

I Love Them Now!!!!

Especially Songs Like La La La, With U and Haru Haru!

Ahh Some Of The Members Are SOOO Good Looking!!

I Don't Know All Their Names Yet.

So Volleyball Has Been Going Good!!

We Won Our First Official Game! YAY!!!

I'm Looking At More Colleges...

I Want To Find One With A Really Good Japanese Program!

I'm Really Tired of School!!! Why Won't It End??

We Got All This Damn Drama Starting I'm So Tired Of It!!!

I Have SOO Much Homework!

I Can't Wait Till It's Over!

So Today Was Just Your Normal Annoying Day!
I Had To Present In English And I Did A Radiohead Song!
Was Great!!
I Wish I Was'nt So Nervous Though!!!
Things With The Team Is Going Fine, I Get To Play Alot And We Have Some Victories Under Our Belt.
I'm Stressing Out About College!!!!
I Have NOO Idea What College To Apply To!!!
I Need To Find A College With A Japanese Language Program!!!
I Really Want To Learn Japanese And Do A Semster In Japan!!!
I Want To Live In Japan Someday!!!!!!!
I'm So Worried!!
What If I Don't Get Into A Good College???
I Don't Want My Dreams To Be Crushed

So I Talked To My Coach About Me Not Being A Starter.

So He Told Me It Was All A Misunderstanding! I Will Be A Starter!! He Was Just Trying Something New!

So We Had Another Scrimmage Today Against Aviation. We Rocked Them SOOO Hard!! And We Played Like 4 Games Agianst Them And Won All Of Them!!!

It Was Great Team Work Today! I Had So Much Fun!!!

So Today My Teacher Was Absent And During 9th Period Also I Went To My Music Teacher, But I Also Have Music 4th Period. So I Pretty Much Played Violin All Day!
It Was Alot Of Fun!!

They Changed My Program AGAIN!! I Was Sooo Pissed!! I Love My Spanish Teacher And They Switched Me!! My Teacher Told Me To Go Talk To The Principal But I Don't Think That Will Do Any Good.

We Have Our First Tournament On Sunday And Our Firt Away Scrimmage On Friday!

Volleyball Season Officially Starts Monday!!

Wish Me Luck!

So Today My Volleyball Team Had our First Scrimmage(practice game) Against East Harlem.
It Was A Really Good Game! My Teams Has Improved Alot!!

I Almost Cried When The Coach Said The Starting Six And I Was'nt One Of Them. I Was Wondering Why I Have Been On The Team For 2 Years Now And I Can't Be A Starter!!

So I Talked To My Coach And Asked If That Was The Official Starters And He Said "Yeah Pretty Much" Then He Said "Why Is There A Problem" And I Said "Me!!! I Want To Be A Starter!!"

He Let Me Play But I'm Still Not Sure I Am A Starter! I'm So Sad!

I Think I'm Gonna Tell Him If I'm Not A Starter I Won't Be On The Team! I Sacrifice Alot For The Team! And If It Won't Pay Off Why Am I On It????

I Don't Know What To Do!! I Don't Even Know Why This Is Bothering Me So Much!

Summer Vacation is comming to an end! All this week I have to go to Volleyball practice instead of enjoying my last week of freedom! I really don't want school to start all that work I have to do is gonna kill me!

I'm happy with the way this summer has turned out. I got to go to China, the Olympics were on, and I got to discover some awesome J-artists/bands.

I'm now on my way to finishing up High School, and hopefully I'll get into a good college and I will be able to follow my dreams. I really don't know what I want to do career wise. There are so many things I want to do but some of them seem like dreams that will never happen.

I'm kind of worried about where I will be sending my college aplications out to. I'm worried that I may not be good enough. I have a great average and a decent SAT score but I know there are much more kids out there that are better than me.

I eventually want to do a semester abroad in Japan and maybe even one day move there. I hopefully want to minor in Japanese so I don't have a hard time when I get there.

I'm Sooo Excited! I've Never Been To Asia Before! I Can't Wait To Go Shopping Over There! We're Going To Beijing, Shanghai and Xi'an. I Really Want To See Shanghai! I Hope I get To Go To The Vivienne Westwood Store Over There. We Don't Have One Here In The US. I Hope I Have Fun And It's Not A Total Drag! Like I Don't Want To Go On Every Tour Because I Want To Have Some Time To Explore By Ourselves. But It's A Once In A Life Time Opportunity And I'm Gonna Make The Best Of It!!!

I wish I could visit Japan! I was looking into exchange student programs for the summer but thy're pretty expensive! My parents are'nt to keen on sending me to Japan. They rather send me on a trip to China because on the China trip we get to visit like 3 cities. I'm so sad I really wan to see Tokyo!